A Twist in My Story - Harry Fanfic

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A Twist in My Story - Chapter 1

I awoke to my annoying alarm clock mocking me.

“ugh shut up.” I muttered as I slammed the snooze button. I don’t want to awake and face reality. I wanted more than anything to close my eyes and let my dreams consume me.

“Alex! Get up! Time for school” my mom yelled from downstairs, I forced myself out of bed and threw on a dc hoodie and some jeans, took a deep breath, and readied myself for whatever torture this day promises.

It was just a normal school day, no different than any other, walking in the hallways, no one bothers to say hi nor acknowledge my existance. The usual. I pass by all the cheerleaders, their face in disgust when they see me. Usually I wouldn’t be so mad, because this behaviour from everyone at school has become my normal . But today I grew tired of it. I’m tired of being that emo depressed chick. I’ve tried, i’ve tried for so long to stop cutting, but today I couldnt resist.

Finally the school day was over, I took the long way home, embracing the silence and wishing I could just get lost in it forever. My cuts still raw and raged with pain when my sleeve rubbed against it, but it pleased me, comforted me, I’m twisted, I know. As soon as I reached my house, I applied my famous fake smile, and entered the door. Silence. Thank god, nobody is home. More time for myself, more time to think about anything and everything. Im not quite sure why I have this eternal depression, all I know is that no one can help me, not even myself.

Suddenly my thoughts became too overwhelming, the room feeling too small for my liking, and before I knew it I was out the door walking to who knows where.

I kept walking until I reached the bridge, pondering the thought of jumping, but pitying myself for not having the guts to. I thoughtlessly rolled up my sleeve and checked my watch. Bad move. I forgot to roll it down.

Before I knew it there he stood, I didn’t even know his name, but he was speaking, his words were all a buzz, this was all happening too fast. Next thing I knew he grabbed my arm, staring at my scars, his face drained colour.

“I -I know I don’t know you but- please stop” he begged “for me”

And that’s how it all started, that was the first thing he said to me, that Is how I met ; Harry Styles.

A Twist In My Story- Chapter 2

I relive it every night. Its been almost a week since i first met him. His loose curls draped over his face, his beautiful green eyes flooded with sadness as he tried so hard to save me.

All I can remember is him begging me to stop, and his name, Harry Styles. How perfect. Its funny how a complete stranger cares more about me than anybody i know. I wanted so badly to give him my name in return, to just talk to him about everything. But I couldn’t. Ever since the incident. So I chose to run away instead. 

Two years ago, when I was thirteen, My life had become torture. I was walking home at about 2:00 o’clock in the morning from my friends crazy party. People started getting obnoxious, using alcohol and drugs. About five minutes away from my house, I felt a presence behind me, almost like someone was watching my every move. All of a sudden, I felt his arms wrap around my delicate waist and his icy breath against my bare neck.

I struggled to break free, but his grip only tightened. He spun me around, and before I even had the chance to scream, his strong hand cupped my mouth, he faintly whispered “shh, just relax.” The next thing i knew, his hands were running up my shirt, and his lips desperately pressed against mine, I could taste the vodka, he was clearly drunk. I tried so hard to pull away, but he grasped me even tighter, bringing tears to my eyes.

He unbuttoned his pants and then- I cant even say it without breaking down. I will always remember his voice, but it was way to dark to see his full face, i could only make out his sickening smirk. Ever since I have distanced myself from everybody, building a wall between everybody i meet. No matter how badly i want to trust them, he will always be standing in my way. I never filed a report and he was never caught.

It chills me to the bone to even think he might still be out there.

A Twist In My Story- Chapter 3

As i made my way into the annoyingly loud cafeteria, I headed straight for the lunch line, waiting patiently for the disgusting slop they like to call food. I glance behind my shoulder, searching for an empty table where I can sit contently alone.

“what do you want” the lunch lady asked 

“pasta”

“You should really have the salad instead” she said while handing me my food and grinning.

I grabbed the tray and stormed off. Wow even adults hate me. Just as i’m about to sit, someone purposely tripped me, causing me to spill the spaghetti all over my clothes.

“watch it, bitch” she said with an evil smile on her face.

I really wasn’t in the mood for this. I ran out of the caf, out the doors and back home. I just curled up in bed and cried. I am so sick of all this, there is no point of my existence. Nobody cares about me, I am just a waste of space. Why should I even bother anymore. Like always, I wanted to go for a run. I use runs as my escape, I think if I run, that maybe I can run away from everything. That if i run fast enough, all my problems will disappear along with the roads behind me. I quickly changed into sweat pants and a tee-shirt, peeling off my pasta-stained clothes and putting my fairly long brown hair in a messy bun. 

Today I decide to run in this neighbourhood called Largrove, Its this rich place where everyone lives happily ever after. Every time I run there people smile at me and wave and actually make me feel real. It makes me ponder on the thought that life would be so much easier if I lived in the perfect community.

A familiar voice stopped my trail of thought. It was Harry on the phone. I quickly turned away, not wanting to have to confront him. But as soon as I started walking away, I knew he saw me, because the next thing I knew, he was no longer on the phone, but quickly approaching me. His footsteps grew louder on the hard pavement, i knew I had no choice but to turn around.

“Hey!” he called.

My heart was racing, I slowly turned around to see his cheeky grin, he was relieved to see me, alive. And I have to admit, I was sort of happy to see him too.

A Twist In My Story- Chapter 4

Oddly, ever since that day on the bridge, I have been hoping to see him again. Im not sure why I feel this way about him. I hardly know him. But he seems so much different than all the others, caring, reassuring, and what I thought was impossible, he seems understanding.

“How are you” he asked softly, staring me right in the eyes.

“shitty” I said while giggling.

“what are you doing?!” the voice inside my head screamed. “he is just like everybody else! he is just going to hurt you

I had been waiting to talk to him for a while now, I was not giving up that easy.

“and why is that” he said, smiling.

Wow his smile is stunning.

“reasons“ 

“hmm i see, and what is your name?”  

should I tell him? I mean there is nothing to lose, right?

“Alex Filtsos” I said. Before he could respond, his phone went off.

“one second I need to take this. -mhmm, ya I am on my way” he said assertively to the person on the other end, as he ended the call.

“You have a very pretty name” He smiled, “Unfortunately I have to leave, but can you meet me for coffee at Starbucks tomorrow?”

“I’ll see.”

“Please” he said, holding my gaze, forcing me to surrender.

He scribbled down something on a piece of paper; his number.

“call me” He said, and with one final smile he walked away. 

A Twist In My Story- Chapter 5

“Alex, calm down it’s just coffee. Don’t get your hopes up, he doesn’t want anything to do with you, you are way too ugly”

I hate that stupid voice in my head. It’s always trying to put me down, even more than i already am. I just want it to disappear.

I looked at myself in the mirror, frowning at my reflexion. Maybe the voice is right, why would someone so perfect settle for someone like me, with so many flaws. My brown eyes don’t sparkle like his, my complexion is imperfect, and I could be skinnier. I usually could care less about how I look, but today i am addicted to trying to make myself look the slightest bit presentable. Instead of the normal five minutes it takes me to throw on an outfit, it took me more than an hour. I wore a navy blue off the shoulder shirt, black skinny jeans and gold nike shoes. I put on a thin layer of eye liner, applied my mothers mascara, and a touch of concealer. I straightened my hair for the final touch, and I was out the door.

As I pushed open the glass doors of Starbucks, the aroma of strong coffee filled the room. I gazed around for Harry, but he was nowhere to be found. I should have known better than to trust him, he was too perfect. I am already here, might as well enjoy myself. I gazed at the door for the thousandth time, and in walked Harry. I felt my lips curve into a shy smile as he approached the table.

“Hi, Harry” I managed to choke out.

“Hey” he replied, not as enthusiastic as I expected. “Sorry i’m late, my parents got in a fight, as usual” he said so easily.

He just opened up to me. I hardly even know him and he was able to tell me something so personal. Deep inside, I envy him, he is so carefree, which I know I could never be.

“Are you ok? do you need to talk about it?”

“no its fine, it happens a lot, i guess.”

“i’m really sorry”

“No its fine, i came here for you” He managed to smile.

Even when times are tough he could still pull off that smile. I guess i’m not the only person in this world who has problems.

“Are you sure? Because if you ever need me i’m here”

“okay, can i get you’re number then?” he grinned.

Should I give it to him? 

“sure” For the first time in a long time, i’m taking a risk. I gave him my number, his face lit up.

“one second, let me get us some coffee”

as he left the table, my blackberry buzzed. *1 new text message* From: Harry Styles.

Harry: hello there :)

I looked up at him, he was waiting in line and waved at me. I texted back:

ohh hey! i haven’t seen you in a while (;

I was feeling somewhat daring today, but I knew i would beat myself up for it later. I like this new me around him. He brings out a side of me that I wasn’t even sure existed. I heard him laughing from the line, when he returned, he was carrying one venti pumpkin spice latte. My favourite. How did he know?

“Try some, its really good”  

Shit! he wants me to share! I wonder how many risks I can take before my luck runs out. I held the coffee in my hand embracing the warmth, and took a sip, the warm coffee soothing me.

“you like it?”

“yes its amazing” He smiled and took the cup, pressing his lips where mine once were. 

We spent the whole day at Starbucks just talking. I tried really hard to avoid the subject of that night on the bridge, but eventually It came up. We shared a lot in common and he doesn’t have the best life either. I was slowly but surely opening up to him, and by the end of the night we became very close friends, but I secretly hope than one day we can be more than that. I better not get my hopes up though. Just before sunset he walked me home, when we arrived at my doorstep he said goodbye and slowly leaned in. I could tell he wanted a kiss, I was panicking on the inside. ohh god what do I do!?

“Goodnight!” I yelled and quickly ran inside, slamming the door behind me.

My back to the wall as I slid down and tucked my head in-between my legs. I hate what I have become.

A Twist In My Story-Chapter 6

I took one last gaze out my window, counting as many stars as I possibly could. I finally gave up, hopping in my bed, getting lost in the sheets. I don’t understand the point of me going to bed, insomnia always keeps me awake. But tonight i was awake for a different reason, for once I didn’t think about how horrible my life is, or how ugly I am, i didn’t even think of the incident, tonight I thought about Harry. I think this is a sign, that there is a point of life. I wouldn’t be here if i wasn’t meant to be, and Harry makes me think like that, he makes me think positive, he gives me a reason to live. I know it sounds pathetic, I know you think since I just met him I shouldn’t be thinking about him as a hero, but theres something about him. I feel it every time I am around him, or even when I get a text from him, he makes me the happiest person in the world. He gives me hope. I know that someday, I will fully open up to him, and I will give him that kiss I was so afraid to give him tonight. And for the first time in a long time, on a happy note, I fell asleep. 

I awoke the next morning to my phone going off.

Harry Styles: good morning ! :) I smiled.

Good morning mr. Styles :)

Care to join me for breakfast today?

No ;)

:( fine, be a meanie </3

Im kidding! i’d love to :) 

Yay!!! meet me at my house in 20?

Why not. 

He wants me to come over? I guess it’s not too bad. I fumbled out of bed and put on a black DC shirt and skinny jeans. I put my hair into a messy pony tail and ran out of my room, making sure to avoid the mirror, there is no way I am putting myself down today. 

*ding dong* the doorbell sounded as I stood there awkwardly. The door slowly opened, and instead of Harry, a girl- probably his mom was smiling at me.

“Hi! come inside, are you looking for Harry?” 

“um ye-“ 

“Harry! theres a pretty girl here for you!” i couldn’t help but blush.

“Oh i’m sorry, what’s your name sweetie?”

“I’m Alex” i responded shyly

“very pretty name” 

Before I could respond Harry ran down the stairs in his pyjamas. 

“Hey!”  I giggled

“what’s so funny?” 

“your pj’s”

He looked at what he was wearing and his face turned pink

“shoot I forgot to change!” we bursted out into laughter “whatever, lets just eat!”

We sat down at his kitchen table, he served me breakfast. 

“I hope you like pancakes!”

“who doesn’t” 

We started eating, the pancakes were delicious. 

“did you make these?”

“Ya, you like them”

“Yes! I wish I could cook” I giggled and took another bite

After breakfast we went outside. I was so overwhelmed with everything that was happening, I am so happy I have someone like him. We sat on the curb in silence, but it wasn’t awkward, It was nice, just taking a second to breathe life in and enjoy this moment.

“So, how’s life?” Harry said breaking the silence.

“it’s getting better. You?”

“Better as well” 

There was a long pause of silence, “I’m sorry if I bore you”  I laughed

“Bore me? You are the only person who I actually enjoy hanging out with” He said shyly while looking me in the eyes. I smiled back as a reply, and I knew he understood I meant the same thing. And that’s another thing I loved about him. We could talk without using words. We could look at each other and understand. 

“Please never do that again.” He said, completely changing the subject. 

“Never do what?” I responded completely cofused

“what you did the night I met you, Im always here if you need to talk and I never want you to harm yourself” 

“Thank you Harry” And I honestly meant it. My phone started to ring, it was mom. “Hello?” 

“Alex, where are you? I need you home”

“Im at a friends, I will be home soon” And I hung up. 

“Im so sorry I have to go. You can come over tomorrow if you’d like?”

“Ill be there” He said grinning.

“Bye!”

I walked home smiling like an idiot. Today was a great day, and I really hope I have many more of these. But again, lets not get my hopes up. Life is full of surprises and my only choice right now is to live in the moment. 

A Twist In My Story-Chapter 7

i woke up smiling. He is my reason to wake up every morning, he puts this smile on my face, and it’s pointless to deny it, because it’s true, i’m falling for him- hard. I know that nobody can make me feel the same way, when i’m around him he makes me feel pretty, which I thought was impossible. His smile and his eyes, well pretty much everything about him, makes me want to melt. Every day is getting better, and i’m loving every minute of it. I’m terrified that one day he will realize he’s too good for me, which he is, that one morning he will wake up and it will finally make sense to him, that i’m just a waste of his time, and that he could do so much better. But I cant afford to think like that, because if I want him to believe that I am worth it, I have to force myself to believe it as well. 

“Hey beautiful” he grinned, looking down at me

“Hey! come in” 

We sat down on my couch, he scooted closer to me and I could feel panic set in, I wanted his touch so badly but I couldn’t handle the flashbacks. 

“umm, i’ll go get us some coke” i managed to choke out. I know I cant go on forever without letting him touch me, I would never be enough for him. 

I walked into the kitchen and grabbed two cans of pop, I slowly walked back.

“Yay! you’re back” he smiled and pulled me onto his lap. 

I forced myself to stay there, I needed to face my fears. But I was shaking, and he knew it. 

“Alex are you ok?” 

“Just perfect”

“I know something is wrong, you can tell me anything” he said reassuringly

“Look, it’s nothing” I trust Harry with my life, but there was something holding me back from telling him, almost like if I did, the incident would re-occur. 

“okay” he said, disappointed, as he took me off his lap

We sat there in silence, but this time it was awkward, and suddenly I felt mad, not at him, not even at myself, but at the boy who raped me. He caused this silence, this depression, this fear of contact. And i dread him, because I know that if that never happened, I would be sitting here with Harry, and instead of this silence, my lips would be pressed with his.

“i’m sorry- for whatever it is” 

“Harry, it isn’t you’re fault.”

“But it is, its my fault because I cant help you through it”

“It’s just something I need to figure out by myself” I lied. I wanted to tell him the whole story, so he could fix me, so he could just hold me tight and tell me he would never hurt me like that, and to reassure me that everything will be ok. Because i’m not so sure anymore.

“I get it, but I will always be here if you need me” 

“Thank you Harry” 

Suddenly the room felt less tense, everything seemed right, and I knew I had to do it, he deserved it, so I finally gave him a hug, I could feel his smile start to form. We just sat there, for what seemed like forever, just holding each other. The moment felt perfect, and for a while, I ignored everything, every little thing inside of me telling me to stop, because Ididn’t want to. And that’s all it comes down to, this is my life, and I won’t let anything else control it.

A Twist In My Story-Chapter 8

Have you ever gotten that rush of excitement when your doing something your not supposed to? Well that’s exactly what happened, and I loved it. I snuggled up to him even closer, closing any gap that ever laid between us and treasuring this moment. I needed to remember every possible detail; to remember how warm his body felt, how his arms fit around me perfectly, I needed to remember how he smelled like axe, and how alive he made me feel. I played it over and over in my head, so afraid to lose this perfect memory, because i’m afraid I may not have the strength to do it again. When we finally pulled away, I felt cold and empty, like i’d lost something that couldn’t be found. But that feeling all washed away when he looked me in in the eyes, gave me that warm smile and said:

“Hugs always make me feel better”

“Ya me too” and it was true, it did make me feel better. I had almost forgotten what a hug felt like, and I know to anyone it would be “just a hug” but for me it’s way more than that. It’s a promise of a new beginning, it’s me slowly facing my fears and escaping everything inside of me trying to hold me back. 

“Can I show you something”  Harry asked softly as he stood up from the couch.

“….sure, i guess”  I replied sounding a bit confused, what could he possibly want to show me in my own house?

He quickly walked towards my room and I followed anxiously behind, I honestly didn’t know what to expect. When entered my room he was sitting patiently on my bed. 

“Come sit”  

My heart was racing, I have no idea what his intentions are, and of corse my mind always gets the best of me. “Alex, leave! He will take advantage of you, just like the other boy”  The voice in my head demanded. But I wasn’t ready to leave. I sat down beside him, he was shifting nervously. 

“so.. what did you want to show me?”

“well, I was thinking of trying out for this show, the X factor. I’m really nervous and I don’t know if i’m good enough, so I wanted to sing to you, I trust your judgement.”

“Oh my gosh, Harry I didn’t know you could sing! i’d love to hear your voice”  

He took a deep breath and began:

“The best thing about tonight’s that we’re not fighting

 Could it be that we have been this way before

I know you don’t think that I am trying

I know you’re wearing thin down to the core

 But hold your breathe

Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you

Over again

Don’t make me change my mind

Or I wont live to see another day

I swear it’s true

Because a girl like you is impossible to find

Your impossible to find

 This is not what I intended

I always swore to you i’d never fall apart

You always thought that I was stronger

I may of failed

But I have loved you from the start

 But hold your breathe

Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you

Over again

Don’t make me change my mind

Or I wont live to see another day

I swear it’s true

Because a girl like you is impossible to find

It’s impossible.” 

and I don’t know if I was just hearing things, but I could’ve sworn I heard him whisper; I mean it.

He was amazing, his raspy voice made me weak. I never thought It was possible to be even more perfect than he already was but when he sang, it brought out a whole other side of him that made him even more loveable than I could ever imagine. I can’t even describe it. I sat there, speechless.

“What do you think?”  he asked nervously. 

It took me a while to reply, but i finally managed. “Harry, that was amazing.” was the only thing I could manage to say, he was breathtaking.

The sun glistened on his face, highlighting his features and making him look even more adorable than he was before. For a second I thought about it-about leaning in and kissing him, the moment was  perfect. But the thought of opening myself up like that- too easily. I couldn’t. Even though this moment is sickeningly perfect, the flashbacks stopped me- once again.  It sent shivers up my spine as i remembered how the boy’s hands wrapped around me, pulling me impossibly close. I pushed the memory away. I didn’t want it to ruin my time with Harry, not now. 

“Thanks” he said, smiling. “The auditions are tomorrow morning, will you come with me?” 

“sure” i smiled back.

“I gotta go, I’ll see you tomorrow” 

and with one last hug, he was out the door. My heart skipped a beat at his touch, and I longed for it. I sat down on my bed, smiling. “ya, see you tomorrow” I whispered faintly to nobody. 

A Twist In My Story-Chapter 9

I applied one final stroke of mascara before staring at my reflection in the mirror. I smiled weakly, forcing myself to believe something that wasn’t true, because i’m not pretty, there is no use trying to tell myself that I am. But when i’m around Harry he makes me feel pretty, in a way that no makeup ever could. Just that thought alone makes my weak smile strong again and I couldn’t help but think about how lucky I am to have him, I honestly don’t know where I would be if I had never met him. Gaining a certain strength in this, I whispered something to myself, something I didn’t even think was in my vocabulary, but I did it. “You look okay today”  I said reassuringly to my reflexion, and on that note, I heard the doorbell chime and my heart skipped a beat. 

“Hey Harry”  

“Hey beautiful”  

“Alex what time do you think you will be back at?- oh hi i’m Lucy, Alex’s mom, and you must be Harry” my mom interrupted

“Very nice to meet you” he said, trying to sound like gentleman. And it made me smile. 

“I will text you, we won’t be too long” 

“Okay, bye sweetie, have fun!”

But before we left, I gave her a big hug, and I could tell she was surprised too. Isn’t it sad that I don’t even remember the last time i’ve ever hugged my own mother? When I pulled away, I saw the biggest smile I have ever seen appear on her face, and it finally hit me. I wasn’t the only one who was sad all these years. I inflicted sadness upon everyone around me, because I was too busy feeling sorry for myself to realize that. I was too busy to care that my mom used to cry herself to sleep, because I always thought I had it worse than her. I was too busy to see that she never smiled. All of this hits me too fast and I realize how sorry I am. Me and my mom never really talk, and right now I wanted to say something, but I couldn’t, so instead I looked her in the eyes and smiled back at her, and I knew she understood me. 

We climbed into the taxi.

“I can’t believe we are going to the X factor!”

“I’m really nervous, I hope I don’t mess up”

“Of corse not, I will be right there, cheering you on” I told him assertively

He stared out the window, and sighed. “And what happens if I do make it?” 

“Then that’s amazing!”

“You have to promise me something.” He said seriously

“What?”

His eyes locked with mine “That you will be here for me, no matter what” 

I almost laughed. He is scared of losing me? No matter what happens, no matter how badly he hurts me I would be there for him in a heartbeat, and I am scared of that. I’m scared of how badly I need him. He doesn’t need me. He could go on his whole life knowing I don’t exist and he would be okay. With me? Well i’m not so sure I would even be alive without him.

“Harry, don’t be stupid, of corse i will always be here. Do you promise?”

“Yes, I promise.”

And suddenly I feel much better, like a weight has been lifted off my shoulders and it feels so good. But again, I don’t know if I can trust that, because every time I have ever trusted someone, they showed me why I shouldn’t, and I just sat there praying Harry wasn’t one of them. That he was different. 

“Were here!” 

“Oh gosh i’m so nervous! Look, I need to go backstage, but wish me luck, I will see you when i’m done” He smiled at me and payed the cab driver. 

 I gave him a tight hug “Good luck! You’ll be great” 

“Bye love” He said, making me weak. And with a wink, he was gone.

I entered into the crowded place, overwhelmed with how many people were there. relieved, I finally found my reserved seat, and I sat down. I knew Harry had a really strong chance of making it through, he was an amazing singer, and his voice stood out way more than the others that were auditioning. Suddenly I felt worried as I realized something. What if Harry does make it in? What if he becomes so popular that he will forget about me? But he promised, and i’m holding on to that promise. I played it over and over in my head reassuring myself that it was true, I played it over so many times that it didn’t even sound like a word to me anymore. My heart stopped as I saw him walk onstage.

He walked onstage with his cheeky grin, seeming much less nervous than before.

“Hello” He said shyly

 ”nice to meet you, what’s your name?” Simon Cowell asked.

“My name is Harry Styles”

“Okay Harry, how old are you?”

“I’m sixteen”

“What are you going to sing?”

“Isn’t she lovely, by stevie wonder”

“Okay go ahead”

He began to sing: 

Isn’t she lovely
Isn’t she wonderful
Isn’t she precious
Less than one minute old
I never thought through love we’d be
Making one as lovely as she
But isn’t she lovely made from love

He was so good, the crowd loved him. He smiled and took a bow, and stood there patient, waiting for the judges comments and criticisms. First up was Louis.

“For all the right reasons, I’ts going to be a no.”

the crowd booed. Next up was Nicole

“I like you Harry, I’m going to say yes.”

I was so nervous. Simon makes the final decision.

“You’ll be happy to hear that i’m agreeing with Nicole”

I was so exited I couldn’t even control it, I have never been more proud in my life. So this is it, this is the end of Harry’s every day life, tomorrow he will be at bootcamp and I will be sitting at home, hoping he won’t change- that his feelings for me won’t change.

I ran up to him and gave him a giant hug.

“Harry i’m so proud of you!’  

“Thank you so much!”

“You know, you were the only reason I did this”

“What? what do you mean?”

“If i never met you, I would have never had the strength to do this- ever”

“Aww Harry”

“Im serious, I owe this all to you.”

We just stood there hugging, it felt so good. I never wanted to let go, because I cant get that one thought out of my head, that one thought that keeps telling me he is going to forget about me, that he will find someone nicer, someone better. I hold on for so long because i’m so afraid that these hugs will no longer belong to me anymore, that one day his embrace will belong to somebody else.

A Twist In My Story-Chapter 10 

Everything is slowly getting better. I’ve missed Harry ever since he left for bootcamp but I have survived without him, he gave me hope to hold on to. At school I have become more confident, people actually talk to me now, even at home my relationship with my parents has improved a lot. Maybe this whole time it has just been me, I was so obsessed with bringing myself down, maybe there really was nobody to blame, I was my own worst enemy. I was so fixated on being sad all the time that it came to an extent where I didn’t even want to be happy. But that all doesn’t matter now, because I am content, and I guess that’s good enough. 

*1 new text message* I grab my blackberry from my bedside table. 

Harry: Hey love ! I miss you :(

Me: I miss you more :(

Harry: Do you want to come visit me today? 

Me: yes !! when ?

Harry: I will pick you up in an hour, Im going to introduce you to some people (:

Me: okay :)

Harry: see ya then xx

My heart was pounding, I haven’t realized how much I missed him till now, I sort of just pushed away the thought of him being gone to avoid the pain. I ran into my bathroom and jumped into the shower, I always have loved taking showers, I thought they could wash away all my problems, I used to look at the mirror when it was all fogged up from the steam and waited for my reflexion to become visible, each time I would pray that when the fog cleared, I would see somebody else, somebody beautiful, somebody-well, anybody but me. But when I looked in the mirror today, after I had gotten all dressed up, for the first time in a long time I actually liked what was staring back at me, and for the slightest second, I had no complaints. I was wearing a light blue crop top and shorts, the only outfit I own that would look decent enough for him. I smiled at my reflexion and walked out of my bathroom, I heard the doorbell ring. I raced down the stairs and pulled open the door. 

“Harry!” I yelled, giving him a big hug

“wow somebody is exited to see me” he grinned

“I missed you” 

“I did too, now lets get going beautiful”

I blushed and took his hand as he led me into the taxi

“So how was your week?” he asked

“Surprisingly not that bad, how is the X-factor?”

“It’s really good, I got put into a band”

“Thats so cool! is that who you are introducing me to?”

“possibly” he winked “how is school going?”

“Actually getting a lot better”

His face lit up “that’s great”

I wanted to tell him that it is all because of him, that school, home, and life in general is better because of him, but I just let it go. 

“were here” he said smiling

I snapped out of my thoughts, I haven’t realized that we have been sitting here in silence for the past 10 minutes because I was just thinking. I used to do that all the time, and it used to be really bad. I used to just come home from school and sit on my bed and stare at my wall, when i’d finally look at the clock I found out that hours would pass by, and I wouldn’t even notice- I wouldn’t even care. 

“Yay” I reached for the door

“wait” he said looking me in the eyes.

He was slowly leaning in, and I couldn’t tell if it was so he could whisper something to me or if it was so he could kiss me, but panic set in either way. He was inches away from my lips and I became numb, I wanted to press forward so badly but I knew that I wasn’t ready.

“Umm let’s go” I said nervously, pulling open the cab door. I looked at him and I saw him frown, it was only for a faint second, but I still missed his smile. 

As we walked inside, we were greeted by four cute boys that looked around Harry’s age. His band.

“Ohh well that’s the girl you keep talking about, she is quite pretty” one of the boys said

“That’s Louis” 

Louis had brown hair that brushed over his eyebrows, he was wearing a striped shirt and suspenders which most guys couldn’t pull off, but it looked really good on him

“I’m Alex” I smiled at them

“I’m Niall!” 

He had blonde hair with a hint of brown, he had pretty blue eyes and an adorable Irish accent

“Hey babe, I’m Liam”

Liam had straight dirty blonde hair and an adorable birthmark on his neck

Finally the last boy came up “Hey, i’m Zayn” 

His hair was gelled up and he had tan skin, he looked more mature than the others

I looked at Harry to see if them flirting with me affected him at all, but his face was expressionless and it stung to know that he didn’t even care.

We went to this amazing restaurant called Nandos, damn those boys could eat. 

“Alex, aren’t you going to eat anything? you’re so skinny!” Niall said with his mouth full, I let out a small giggle

“I’m not hungry” and I really wasn’t, I had lost my appetite a while ago knowing Harry didn’t care, I couldn’t shrug off that one thought and it has been eating at me all night. I wasn’t looking for sympathy or a fight, just something, anything would have been nice.

At the end of the night I exchanged numbers with all the boys and said our goodbyes. They were extremely sweet and we became really good friends already, they all knew how to make me smile and feel comfortable and I really hoped I could see them soon. 

“So, did you like them”  He asked dryly as we got in the cab

I don’t know what was up with him, maybe it was the fact that I didn’t kiss him- but he was definitely not acting normal.

“Ya, I had so much fun!” 

“Good, you will be seeing a lot more of them” He sounded happier than before and I calmed down a bit “So who is your favourite?”

“hmm.. you” 

“Yay!!” he screamed childishly, causing the taxi driver turn around “Sorry” he whispered. we both started laughing. We continued to joke around and the cab finally pulled up to my house. 

“Thank you” Harry said, paying the taxi driver.

The full moon lit up the night sky making it easy to see Harry’s perfect face. As the cab pulled away Harry wrapped his arms around my waist and pulled me in towards him for another try at a kiss, I wanted to so badly it hurt, but everything- the moon, the sky and his arms around my waist, it all reminded me of the incident. The flashbacks became too much and I could just picture Harry as the boy

“Stop! please” I said fighting back tears

“Why do you do this to me!” he yelled, startling me, I have never heard him this angry before

“You’re just a tease, that’s all you are” Those words cut like knives, and I couldn’t breathe, the reality of the situation was hitting me too fast. 

“Harry! you don’t understand!”

“Understand? What is there to understand!? I like you, you know that, why do you have to keep leading me on!?”

I wanted to say something, maybe that I’m sorry, or maybe that It wasn’t my fault, but the words weren’t there- not anymore. He looked right through me like I was just a stranger, and that killed me inside. I watched him walk away and I felt every piece of me that he had ever mended shatter again. 

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These past two weeks I have had too much time, staring at these four walls. I’ve had too much time to think, and to wish things could be different. I used to love thinking, that was the only thing I would ever do, I would just think about everything, but now that I have experienced the good life it’s all that I want, I took it all for granted and now i’m being selfish and just wanting it back. Anger washes over me and I become so mad at myself for being such a wuss, its been two years since the incident, why cant I just get over it. I stare at my phone for what seems like the millionth time these two weeks and of corse- no messages. Harry used to send me a message every day and I loved it, but it became my normal and I expected it, I expected to wake up every morning to a text, and now I just wish that he could send me another one so I could treasure it like I should have. I am not okay without him anymore, all the hope that he gave me last time is all gone and i’ve gone back to being a nobody at school and lashing out on my parents for no reason. I need him, and that thought alone scares me because i’m not so sure he’s coming back.

I grew tired of doing absolutely nothing with my life so I decided to call Niall to ask if he wanted to hang out, I felt guilty deep inside because I know that the only reason I want to see him is that he could tell me something- anything about Harry. 

“Hey Niall it’s Alex” 

“Oh hey Alex! What’s up?”

“Nothing, are you free today?”

“Yes i’m so bored!” 

“Meet me at Starbucks?”

“Sure, but can my girlfriend come too?”

“Ya, of corse”

Girlfriend. I flinch at that word. 

“See you there”

I threw on grey sweat pants and a super man shirt, I honestly didn’t care how I looked at all.

-

I walked into Starbucks and the smell of coffee was sickeningly familiar, and made it harder for me to get Harry off my mind. I remember sharing the latte with him and it forces me to realize how much I miss him. 

“Hey Alex!” Niall said, snapping me out of my thoughts

“Hey Niall”

“This is Lauren, I think you’ll like her”

“Hi nice to meet you” she said so sweetly, and I envied her for it.

“Ya you too” I tried to sound as happy as possible

She was flawless, she had ocean blue eyes and golden brown hair. I felt ashamed every time I looked at her, knowing I would never be that pretty. 

We sat at a table in the far corner, hidden from everyone and I was thankful for it. 

“So Alex, how’s Harry” Lauren asked, smiling “Niall says you’ve got some romance going on” 

I gave her a weak smile “Well not so good, to be honest”

“Aww what happened” she asked, like she truly did care. I needed somebody to talk to and she seemed perfect for it

“Well, he tried to kiss me and I wasn’t ready- He got so mad and we haven’t talked at all ever since”

“That’s horrible!” “You need a girls night, tonight i’m taking you to the movies”  she said with such ease, like she’s known me forever

“sure” for the first time in two weeks I smiled. She actually cared.

“Alex, i’m so sorry, I didn’t know” Niall said

And it was something he said that stung, he didn’t know. What if that means that Harry has been acting completely normal, like plain old Harry. Maybe that means that he wasn’t affected at all.

“There’s a movie in 20 minutes, if we leave now we would be there in time, you down?”

“Ya let’s go”

-

We walked into the movie theatres, before we arrived Lauren insisted on doing my makeup she said “you never know, you may see someone cute” well of corse, there are cute boys everywhere you go, but that doesn’t change anything, they still aren’t Harry, and that one fact would never change. But I let her do my makeup anyways and I have to admit she made me look about a hundred percent better than I did earlier today.

“Alex, what do you want to-” she stopped right in the middle of her sentence and stopped walking all together

“Lauren, what’s wrong” 

But she didn’t have to tell me, because I saw it for myself. Right in the corner I saw Harry, hooking up with some random girl. My heart stopped, and I felt dizzy. My whole life was falling apart and all I could do was sit there and watch. I couldn’t believe it, he threw everything away, everything we’ve ever had for a stupid hookup with a complete stranger. It makes me feel worthless. Before I even knew what was happening, I was running. I didn’t know where or why but I couldn’t stop. I finally gave up and sat down on the curb. It started to pour rain and it disgusted me, this all seems too much like a movie. That’s all it was, was one big sappy movie, nothing felt real anymore. In the corner of my eye I saw him, he was running towards me and I had no strength to run away from him. It was all happening too fast, and before I knew it he was in front of me.

“Alex, Im so sorry!” he yelled, but it sounded like a whisper to me.

I was tired, but not from a lack of sleep. I was tired of apologies, tired of deceit, and I was so tired of lies, and that’s all his apology was, a lie. He would have never done it if he was sorry

“Save it Harry” I whispered, staring into nothing

He was crying now. “Alex, please, I didn’t mean it. I missed you so much, you don’t understand!” 

“How could you Harry. I really liked you, just because I wasn’t ready to kiss you doesn’t mean you could just walk away on me like that. if you really cared you would wait for me, you would be there for me until I am ready” I was yelling now

“You drove me insane! You can’t lead someone on like that!” All of the sadness and guilt was replaced by anger

“You would never accuse me of leading you on if you knew why I didn’t kiss you! You think you know everything about me Harry but you dont.” 

We were arguing back and forth for a long time, I was letting everything out and I was proud of myself for it. 

“I can’t believe I actually trusted you! You know what Harry, I actually thought you were different. Turns out you’re just like the rest of them”

“Take that back Alex.”

“No. You promised Harry, you promised you would always be there for me and you lied. You don’t understand how hard it was for me these two weeks without you. I was struggling so much Harry and you? You couldn’t care less”

“You know that’s not true! Please don’t do this Alex”

“I hate y-“ 

And before I even had the chance to finish, his lips pressed with mine, and I finally didn’t pull away. We just stood there in the pouring rain, it felt like we were the only people in the world. I let everything go, and I realized that I could never hate him, ever. I wanted to laugh at the irony, it really did feel like a big love story, and this was the rising point. This was the twist. 

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His lips fit perfectly with mine and it all felt so right. All of the voices telling me to stop are now faint whispers of the past, and I couldn’t be more happy. He was holding me so tightly, almost like if he would let go I would slip away into nothingness, but he didn’t have to worry anymore, because this was the end of being broken. I thought it was impossible, I really did. But he proved to me that life could be good, that life could be okay. I was sick and tired of distancing myself from him- from everyone. But that’s all gone now, and I just let myself melt into him. We were kissing for what felt like forever, I felt a smile form on his face and it made me smile too. His beautiful smile was pressed with mine. I never wanted to let go, I wanted to capture this moment, and whenever something was not okay, I would go back to this and everything would feel in place. 

“wow’ He said, pulling away “Do you want to go back inside, we could still catch the movie?” 

And just like that the moment was gone.

“Sure”  

We walked back into the movie theatres and Lauren was standing inside waiting for me

“One sec Harry, I need to go talk to her”

“Okay, bye love” He pecked me on the cheeck

I smiled and ran up to Lauren

“Alex, where have you been?! are you okay?”

“Ya everythings fine”

“What happened?”

“Well, we kind of kissed.”

“Oh my gosh, are you guys like a couple now or something?”

“Well.. I actually don’t know” And i honestly didn’t. I had no clue. The thought of that just being a hookup turns my stomach. Could what just fixed me mean absolutely nothing to him? 

“Talk to him about it”

“Ya sure”

“I dont think you should watch a movie, go to his house and chill or something” 

“Good idea” 

“Text me later”

“Will do, bye”

Before I could turn around his arms wrapped around me from behind and i felt my heart beat faster

“Hello Harry”

“Why hello there”

“Are we just going to stand here?”

“Let’s head back to my place”

“Yay”

Everything to say, yet nothing to talk about. The car ride to his house was awkward and uncomfortable, I wanted to talk to him about tonight, I wanted to say everything that was on my mind but I just couldn’t find the words for it. I hate to admit but he’s never felt more like a stranger, and it hurts because it doesn’t even feel like the kiss ever happened. It just feels like any normal day with Harry and it’s not supposed to be this way. It never was, I was picturing everything so differently, this night so differently. That’s why I used to never care, for me it was simple; aim low and avoid disappointment. And of corse, I raised my hopes. But it doesn’t have to be this way, and I wont let it.

-

“Your bed is so comfy!” 

“You could sleep in it if you like” he winked at me

“Maybe I will” 

He grinned

“So Alex, what did you want to talk to me about?” He looked me in the eyes and smiled so sweetly I swear I could’ve melted

“Well..Umm. What’s going on, I mean- with us” I barely managed to choke out

“Well, I really like you, and i’m glad you asked, because I was wondering if you maybe wanted to go out with me?”

My heart stopped. I couldn’t believe how amazing one night could be. This is it, this is what I have been waiting for.

I couldn’t put it in words so I leaned in and brushed my lips against his

“Does that answer your question” I teased

“I didn’t quite catch that, could you repeat yourself” He said grinning as he pulled me in for another kiss

I went from being at the bottom of the world to the top. I couldn’t be more happy, it’s funny how things work. You go from having nothing and being content with it, but as you experience better and better that’s all you ever want, and you look back on when you had nothing and you laugh. You know that you could never go back to it, and its surprising how selfish we all are, I know I could go back to the way I was, and its true. We all want more, just striving for everything that’s just out of reach, and once you have it less will never be enough, your old life will never be enough. And I just hope that he can settle for me, i hope that i’m enough.

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He snuggled closer to me, burying his face in my neck and planting light kisses all over it. This, right here is what I want, what I’ve wanted all along. All the pain was worth every second I could ever spend with him.

“Alex?” Harry whispered softly into my neck, sending shivers down my back

“Yes Harry?” 

“I’m sorry”

“Why are you sorry?”

“I’m sorry for everything I put you through”

“It’s fine Harry, don’t worry” And that’s all I really could say, I didn’t want to hold a grudge on him. I never was the grudge type, but I always have been too forgiving, and that’s really no better. 

He let out a small sigh “okay.” 

“I should go home Harry, It’s getting late”

“No! stay with me.”

“Harry I-“

He looked up at me “Pleeeaase” 

“Ugh, fine”

“Yay! I love sleepovers”

“You’re such a kid” I teased

“But I’m your kid”

“I was unaware that I had a child” We started laughing 

“Shh, you’re going to wake my mom up” he pressed his finger on my lips

“Ohh shut up, you were just as loud as me”

“Was not”

“I will kill you in your sleep”

“That doesn’t sound very promising” 

We were talking till 3 in the morning about everything, I loved how we act together, I am actually me when I’m around him. I can’t believe how lucky I am, and I truly won’t know until I lose everything because that’s how it works. But i’m not letting that thought take over, I have hope that everything will turn out alright, and I won’t let it go.

“Well that’s just how life is I guess, it’s unfair, always has been always will be” He spoke softly

We had gotten into a deep conversation, he’s amazing, he can be a complete goof, and then he can be adorable and serious

“I just don’t understand”

“And you never will, no one will”

“but- what’s the point of life, Harry? I just don’t see a point in me being here, if i’m just going to die in the end”

“I don’t know, I really don’t. But I know that If you weren’t here I would be missing something”

“Lies, you wouldn’t know I exist”

“Well now that I do I know i could never live without you”

He laid down on top of me and kissed me softly, I moved my hand through his smooth curls, pushing him impossibly close. When we pulled away he looked down at me and smiled

“You look tired beautiful, you should get some rest”

“Okay night Harry”

I got up from his bed and made my way to the couch in his room

“Where do you think you’re going?” 

“To sleep on the couch”

“No way, you’re sleeping with me”

“Make.Me”

“Alright”  He ran up to me and threw me over his shoulder and onto his bed, “I think i just made you” He winked at me

“Fine, you win”

“Goodnight love, see you in the morning” He kissed me on the neck and wrapped his arms around me. He was already asleep and he was snoring lightly, he looked so peaceful. I smiled and cuddled up to him even closer, I looked up to see him smiling. sleep was slowly pulling me out of consciousness and I dozed off in his arms.

A Twist In My Story-Chapter 14

“Harry” I mumbled, still half asleep. “What time is it?” 

Silence. Maybe he was still asleep. I opened my eyes and stared at emptiness, the bed feeling cold in his absence. He was probably awake already. I hopped out of bed and headed downstairs.

“Harry?” 

“Yay, you’re awake! I made you breakfast” He picked me up and put me over his shoulder, walking towards the kitchen

“Harry, put me down this instant!” 

“Hmm, no!”

“I am like ten million pounds, you’re going to kill yourself!”

“Shut up, you are not fat” He put me down on the kitchen chair and looked me in the eyes “Got it? You are beautiful, you are skinny and perfect so just be quiet and eat”

I smiled and took a bite out of the omelette, cheese and bacon, it’s like he can read my mind.

“You like it?”

“Yes, how are you such a good cook?”

“I’m just skilled like that”  

“Sureee, so anyways, what do you want to do today?”

“If its okay with you, Louis wanted us to come over?”

“Ya that’s fine” 

“I think you forgot something” 

“And that is..?”

“You never gave me a kiss this morning! my lips feel lonely” He pouted

“Eww, I have morning breath, let me brush my teeth first”

“Nope, kiss me right now” 

I ran upstairs giggling, he chased after me and grabbed me by the waist.

“Let me go!” 

“Never! Not until you kiss me”

I brushed my lips against his

“Now let me go”

“Fine!”

I went to the bathroom and brushed my teeth and walked out

“Harry, my clothes are dirty”

“Take them off” 

“Haha, very funny you perv”

“You can borrow some of mine?”

“Yay!”

He handed me his grey sweatpants and a Jack Wills shirt and walked out of his room. I pulled them on and smiled, he’s so sweet. I looked at myself in the mirror and I smiled, I didn’t look pretty, I didn’t look flawless, but I looked happy, and that is a beautiful thing. 

“Ready to go love?” Harry entered the room. “Wow you look good in my clothes” 

“Haha, ya let’s go”

“Wait!”

“What now?”

He pressed his lips with mine and put me on the bed. His hands were running through my hair and I placed small kisses on his neck. 

“Harry, we should go” I whispered

“Okay, lets go babe” He kissed me on the cheek and got up, grabbing my hand. 

-

“Hey guys!” Louis pulled us in a hug “Alex, I missed you!”

“I missed you too” I smiled

“Come in” 

We walked into his house, it was so much bigger than I would have imagined. I never thought Louis would be so rich, not that I thought he was poor, but that he is so genuinely happy I just never thought he’d need all of this. 

We sat down on Louis couch and Harry pulled me onto his lap. I thought back to when I was scared of his touch and it comes off as funny. I cuddled closer to him, burying my face in his chest.

“So are you too like a thing now?” Louis teased

“Yes we are” Harry said proudly, kissing me on the forehead. 

I looked at Louis, and I don’t know if I was just seeing things, but I swore I saw him frown

“Aww, so cute! Now stop acting all couple-ey, it’s gross”

We laughed 

It was really sweet how Harry was so open about it, he wasn’t embarrassed at all to be dating me, and i’m glad. He is making it seem like he is even happier with us being together than I am, and that he needs me. Although I know it isn’t true, it’s nice to not be the one making all the effort for a change.

“So did you tell her about tomorrow?” Louis asked

“Not yet, but I guess I have to now”

“What’s tomorrow?” 

“Well, were performing viva la vida” 

“Oh my god, that’s so cool!”

“Will you come?”

“Of corse I will”

He kissed me on the cheek and smiled at me

“What would I do without you?” Harry asked

I’m not quite sure, I wanted to say, because I’m not sure what he would do, but I think he would be fine- I know he would be fine. He deserves so much better than me and it’s only a matter of time until he figures that out for himself.

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“How do I look ?”  Harry asked, posing like a model

I giggled “like a million bucks”

He was wearing a plaid shirt and jeans, he looked adorable

“I’m so nervous!” 

“I’ll be right there Harry, don’t worry, you’ll be great!”  I hugged him tightly

“Hurry up man, we’re on in five” Liam interrupted 

“Ohh gosh, sorry Alex I have to go”

“Good luck, don’t be nervous, it messes your voice up”

“Well that helps a whole lot” Harry said sarcastically

I smiled as he pulled me in for a goodbye kiss

“Eww, get a room!” Liam complained, dragging Harry out of the room

“We’re in a room” I heard Harry mumble under his breath “Bye love!” He yelled, then he was gone.

-

Row A, seat 23. I made my way to my reserved seat, right at the front. 

“Alex!” someone yelled, but the crowd was so loud I could barely hear it “Over here!” The voice called again

I looked around and saw Lauren waving at me. I smiled and walked towards her

“Hey Lauren, I didn’t know you were going to be here”

“Ya Niall surprised me last night. I’m so proud of all of them!”

“Same! I can’t believe they’re so talented”

“Where do you sit?”

“Well, according to the ticket, right beside you” I laughed

“Yay, sit sit”

I sat down and she gave me a big hug.

“So how are things with the Nialler”

“Everything is going great, he’s amazing, I don’t deserve him”

“Ya, i know what you mean” And I really did.

“How’s Harry?”

“Everything is okay so far, he’s great”

“That’s really good”

We heard the crowd going crazy

“Give it up for One Direction!” The host yelled

I looked around and saw hundreds of pretty girls screaming, with posters in their hands. I cant believe I have Harry.

As Viva La Vida started playing, they walked on stage. Liam started to sing, his voice was strong and steady 

Next was Zayn’s solo, as he walked up to the front, the other boys followed behind him. He was an amazing singer, his voice was soft and natural. 

Then Niall was up, his voice was happy and sweet, I turned to Lauren and nudged her arm, she was crying

“He’s really good” I said

“I’m so proud of him” 

I looked back at them and I stared at Harry, I listened closely and I could hear his adorable raspy voice, he turned to me and smiled. I felt my face turn red.

I turned to Louis who had a huge smile on his face, I could tell he was really thankful to be there. He looked at me and winked, and i smiled back at him.

They all walked up to the edge of the stage and Liam finished off the song, they were all smiling and hugging each other. I felt weak, they were all amazing.

I know I should be happy, proud even, but all I was was scared and nervous. I felt guilty for feeling it but I couldn’t push it away. Seeing all those girls made me sick, I could be his everything today and then I could be nothing just like that. They were too good, and I know deep inside that they would go far, and for some reason I was just sitting there being selfish, wanting him to myself. 

-

“Hey babe” Harry said walking towards me

I was finally backstage

“Harry!” I yelled, jumping on him. “You were amazing!” 

He picked me up and put me on the couch and started kissing me

“Excuse me miss, you need to leave” Someone said from above us

We turned around and saw a security guard. I looked at Harry and he gave the security guard a dirty look.

“I dont want her to go” He hugged me tightly 

“You can see her later, she can’t be here”

“No-“

“It’s okay Harry, I can leave” I said, trying my best not to sound too sad

“Okay, but I promise you after this, me, you, my house. Okay?”

“Alright, bye Harry”

“I have a surprise for you when you come”

“Yay, okay bye!”

He kissed me one last time before the security guard led me out the door

“Harry!” I heard Zayn call from inside the room. “Theres like a bunch of hot chicks that want to meet us man!” 

“Okay, I’ll be right there” He smiled

My heart sunk. It was happening- faster than I thought it would. He has already forgotten about me and it’s been less than a minute. It makes me nauseous thinking about those girls, they would be all over him. If this is how it’s going to be on the first show I couldn’t imagine how he is going to be when they get big.

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Get away from my man!

You little whore, I know you’re all over him, he’s ours!

I saw the pictures of you and @Harry_Styles on the couch you slut! Back off. 

I couldn’t take it anymore, I started to cry. This whole day has been too much. Harry is probably still flirting with a million girls and now i’m getting hate on twitter. Why does this shit always happen to me.

Everyone, stop sending @AlexFiltsos hate, she is beautiful. 

I smiled as I saw Harry tweet that. I couldn’t stay mad at him if I tried. It disgusts me how vulnerable I am. No matter what I would come crawling back to him, he knows he can get away with anything.

Hey love, are you still coming over tonight? Harry texted me

Sure, what time?

Come now :)

Okay be there in 10 xx

“mom, dad, can you drive me to Harry’s?”

“Ya sure, get in the car” My mom replied, grabbing the keys

-

“Alex!” Harry pulled me inside

“Aha, Hi!” 

“Come downstairs, the fireplace is on”

He grabbed my hand and led me to the basement. I looked around, it was so comforting, it almost looked like a cottage. 

“So what did you do when I left?” I asked, hoping to get an explanation.

“Nothing baby, why?” He said, pulling me on his lap

I felt sick “Oh, no reason, I just thought you would’ve met some fans or something”

“Oh! Ya we met a bunch of fans, but I missed you the whole time”

“Aww Harry” I said, feeling a bit better than before

“I’m so sorry for all the hate on twitter love” 

“It’s okay, it’s not your fault”

“Okay love, and i’m sorry for the stupid security guard. ruined all the fun” He laid me down on the couch and climbed on top of me, looking into my eyes “soo.. where were we” 

I smiled and grabbed his head pulling him towards my lips. He wrapped my legs around him and kissed me harder. It quickly turned into a make out session, he was an amazing kisser. He slid his hands under my butt and started kissing my neck, he started to lift up my shirt. 

“Harry, I don’t want to go too far”

“Im sorry babe” He climbed off me, and I suddenly missed his touch. 

I sat on his lap, facing him and wrapped my arms around his neck and started to kiss it. 

“mm, Alex stop.” He groaned

I smiled, and climbed off him “Sorry baby” I bit my lip and stared at him I wanted to laugh at how turned on he was, it was fun being in control for once. “So anyways, what’s this surprise you were talking about?”

“Oh, well….”

“Yes?”

“You’re coming with me to France, if that’s okay with you”

“What!? Harry are you serious!?” I jumped on him

He laughed “Oui oui ma chérie” 

“Oh my gosh, when!” 

“Next week, I already talked to your parents, they said it’s fine” 

“You’re the best!!” I kissed him on the cheek “Is it just going to be us?” 

“Yep!”

Words couldn’t describe how exited I was. It would be just me and him, no distractions. 

“How did you get the money?” 

“Shh, don’t worry about it” He kissed me on the lips. 

“You’re the best” 

“I know, oh and you’re sleeping over tonight. I don’t want to be lonely”

“Sure” 

He threw me over his shoulders and carried me upstairs

“Harry, I am capable of walking”

“I know, but you’re too pretty to walk”

I giggled “That doesn’t even make any sense!” 

“You don’t make any sense”

He threw me on his bed

“Harry can I borrow some of your pj’s?” 

“Of course you can, you look sexy in my clothes.”

I laughed and grabbed the clothes he gave me

“Close your eyes!”

“Okay” He cupped his hands over his eyes

I changed into the pi’s he handed me 

“daaammmnnn gurl”

“You perv, I said cover your eyes”

“Wooopsies”

I hit him with a pillow

“Owch! I hate you.”

“I hate me too”

He grabbed me and looked me in the eyes

“I never ever want to hear that come out of your mouth again, got it?”

“I make no promises”

“Fine then I’ll take someone else to France”

“NOO! Sowwy Harry, I will never hate myself again”

“Good, now get some rest”

“Fine” 

He threw me on the bed and laid down beside me. 

“Goodnight my love”

“Night Harry”

He gave me a goodnight kiss and cuddled up to me. I smiled and buried my face in his chest. Everything was going good, and I hope it will stay that way. But again, you can never speak too soon. 

A Twist In My Story-Chapter 17

“Wake up, wake up!” Harry yelled, jumping up and down on the bed

Today was the day. It would only be me and Harry, in France, the most romantic place on this earth. 

“Five more minutes” I mumbled, although I was fully awake

“No! now” He grabbed my feet and pulled me out of bed

“Harry!” I yelled, hitting him

“Finally you’re up! Now let’s get ready, we need to leave in like 20 minutes”

“Okay okay, gosh”

“Sorry misses grumpy, where’s my morning kiss by the way?”

“I can’t seem to find it, it must be lost” 

“Haha very funny” He pulled me in and kissed me

“Enough lover boy, I need to get ready, do I have time to take a shower?”

“Only if I can join” He winked 

“Hahhaaha, no.”

“Fine, be a meanie. The showers just down the hall” 

“Okay, bye bye”

I took a short shower and got dressed in Harry’s clothes, he lets me borrow them all the time, he even picks out specific outfits saying “It will compliment my hair tone” and things like that, he’s absolutely adorable. 

“Looking beautiful as always” Harry said, grabbing me by the waist and hugging me

“Thanks love, now lets get going!”

-

“I hate planes” 

“We’ll be fine” he said, comforting me. “Can you speak French?”

“Yep!”

“Tu est très belle, what did I just say”

“You are very pretty” 

“Why thank you”

I hit his arm playfully.

“Go to bed love, It’s going to be a long flight, you can sleep on me”

“Okay, thank you love.” I kissed him on the cheek. 

I leaned my head on his shoulders and he rested his head on mine. I smiled and closed my eyes.

I slept for what felt like 5 minutes, but in reality was 4 hours. I woke up to Harry singing softly in my ear. It sent shivers down my spine, I closed my eyes and pretended I was sleeping, wanting to hear more.

“You don’t know, oh oh, you don’t know you’re beautiful.”

He stopped, kissing me on the cheek

“That was really good Harry, what song is that?”

“You’re up! you weren’t supposed to hear that. I kind of just made it up”

“Really? It sounded great”

“You think so?”

“Yes!” 

We will be landing momentarily, please buckle your seat belts The flight attendant announced. 

Harry saw I was nervous and grabbed my hands. 

“Don’t worry beautiful, I got you”

I smiled and looked into his pretty green eyes, he leaned in and kissed me, placing his hand lightly on my cheek. My heart was racing, we were only minutes away from France.

I pulled away “Where will we be staying?” I honestly didn’t know much about the trip at all

“Some fancy hotel in paris”

“Harry, how did you afford all this!”

“Don’t worry about it” He said, almost nervously.

It’s something about the way he said it, it didn’t sit right. Was he hiding something? I pushed it aside, whatever it is it doesn’t matter because the plane has landed and we’re finally here.

I looked out the plane window, speechless from the beautiful view. The sun was out and everything looked in place.

“Come on babe” He grabbed my hand 

We finally got out of the stupid airport. I hate airports, everybody is snobby and are no help. I wish I could get paid for doing nothing and being rude all day. 

“Where are we going now?”  I asked, linking my arm with his.

“To the hotel, a cab is picking us up’

“I’m so exited! What do you want to do today? I was thinking-“

‘Woah slow down there, we just got here babe” 

“Sorry I’m just exited” I said, embarrased

“It’s fine, I need to step out for a bit later but then I’m all yours” he kissed me on the head

“Oh okay”  was all I could say, but I wanted to say so much more. Where did he have to go? Where would he possibly need to go in a foreign country. 

“Hey, smile beautiful” 

I forced a smile, I know I should be happy but it just feels odd. I let it go, I’m in France might as well enjoy myself. 

-

The hotel was huge, it had to have at least have 40 floors. It looked perfect and inviting. We walked in hand in hand, it was even prettier than I had predicted. The lounge was gigantic, it had fancy couches and old style tables, the lobby was a beautiful shade of cream and beige which surprisingly worked really well. We got our key; Room 1509 floor 15. 

“Are you sure you don’t need help with the luggages?” I asked, feeling bad that I let him carry them that long

“I’m sure, just get the elevator”  

-

I fumbled with the lock on the door, finally unlocking it. I opened the door and looked inside, the room was stunning. It was probably bigger than every room in my house combined, I could totally get used to this. I ran inside and jumped on the bed, which could easily fit 8 people if necessary. 

“Harry get over here, this is amazing!” 

He threw the luggages on the floor and jumped onto the bed. 

“I don’t like it” 

“What!? Why it’s huge”

“Exactly, I want to cuddle with you, I don’t want a big bed”

“Of corse you’re going to cuddle with me, but it’s a good bed to jump on”

“True that”

He jumped on top of me and started to tickle me. 

“Ahh- Harry- Stop!” I said in-between giggles

“YES your ticklish! Never!”

“Stop!!” I yelled trying to pry him off

“Nope this is too much fun”

I flipped him over and went on top of him, straddling his waist. 

“Ha, now I’m in control” I teased

“I don’t mind at all, I like it”

“You are disgusting, you know that?”

“I am aware” He grinned and grabbed the back of my neck, pulling me towards his face. I leaned in closer and closed the space between us with a long kiss. He moved his hands up my back, playing with my bra hook, I slid my hands up his shirt touching his abs. 

“ugh” Harry groaned

I find it funny how easily he gets turned on

“Babe what time is it” He asked, breathing heavily

I pulled away and looked at the clock “8:09” 

“Shit! I gotta go, I will be back around 10:00, sorry babe. I promise i’m all yours when I get back” 

And without anything else being said, he was gone. The room didn’t feel as welcoming anymore. I am not sure what he expected me to do till 10:00 so I just sat there, wondering what the hell he had to hide.

A Twist In My Story-Chapter 18

10:56 I stared at the clock. Where could he possibly be? He was an hour late, and he wasn’t responding to any of my text’s. I was just sitting on the bed for 3 hours. I should be worried, we’re in a different country, he could be lost, but i’m not worried, i’m mad. He didn’t even tell me where he was going or why, and now he’s late, but then I heard the door swing open and all my anger was gone. He is too perfect to stay mad at. 

“Harry!” I yelled jumping on him.

“Hey babe, sorry i’m late”

“It’s fine, where did you go?”

“Oh, um I just went to my uncles house, he lives here” 

The way he said it sounded so sad, like he knew he was lying to me and he felt bad about it.

“Aww that’s so nice” I said, trying my best to sound happy. I pulled him on the bed and sat on his lap “So what do you want to do?” 

“It’s late love, I want to go to bed” He said, sounding more upset than tired

“Ohh.. Okay.” I said, forcing a smile

“Goodnight” He said, kissing me on the forehead

“Where’s my goodnight kiss?” I asked

He went under the covers and faced the opposite way of me “Tomorrow” 

“Night” 

And before I could say anything else he was asleep. He didn’t kiss me, cuddle with me or barely even look at me. Something was wrong and I hoped it really was because he was tired. I closed my eyes and tried my best to go to bed “Tomorrow’s another day” I repeated over in my head. I needed to hold onto that promise.

-

“Morning love” Harry whispered softly in my ear

I smiled, he’s back. “Morning babe” 

He kissed me on the cheek “Hungry?” 

“Yes! I can’t wait to try the food”

“How does room service sound?”

“What!? It sounds expensive, I won’t let you pay that kind of money”

“Too bad” He grabbed the phone and I jumped on his back, we were laughing “Deux croissants et la jus d’orange, merci” He said to the guy on the other line, then hung up.

“Croissants and orange juice?” 

“Yep” He smiled and kissed me “Sorry for being rude last night I was exhausted” 

“No worries, but stop spending all this money! I feel horrible” 

“I do it because I want to so shh”

I smiled and kissed him. “You’re the best” 

He put his head in my lap “I know” 

“What are we doing today?”

“I was thinking beach, you down?”

“Of corse! I love the beach!” 

“Room service!” Someone interrupted

“I’ll get it love” Harry said, kissing my cheek and running for the door

I am honestly the luckiest girl in the world. I am in France with the most beautiful, talented amazing boy I’ve ever seen in my life. My luck has changed and I didn’t even believe it was possible. I thought I would go on my whole life being a depressed mess, I would have never been here with him if i’d gave up hope. I probably would have been dead. Things do get better and I wish everyone could see that.

I looked at the tray he placed infront of me ”It looks amazing!” 

“I know, i’ve never had French food before”

The food was delicious, I had never tasted anything like it. The croissant was flaky and soft and it melted in my mouth.

“Oh my gosh, I could eat this every day” I said in between bites

He kissed me softly on the neck “Then we’ll order it everyday” 

“You’re crazy” I giggled, punching him lightly on the knee

“I just wan’t you to have an amazing time, to me the money is worth seeing you smile”

My cheeks turned pink and my face lit up ”You truly are amazing”

-

The beach was beautiful, the sun was out, the water was glistening and there was even palm trees which I didn’t even know grew in France. 

I looked around “Wow, this place is dead”

“More space for us!” He pulled off his shirt and pants,

I giggled “Nice SpiderMan swim trunks”

“I know. Now change, I want to swim”

I pulled off my shorts and t-shirt, revealing my light blue bikini. 

“Damn…” He said, eyeing me up and down

I laughed “Don’t get too exited” 

“Sorry.. race you to the water, 3 2 1 GO!”

I laughed and ran towards the ocean, falling on purpose.

“Aw, babe are you okay?” He said, running up to me.

I ran away from him giggling

“No fair! You cheated” He yelled, laughing

He caught up to me and picked me up, throwing me into the water. I  jumped on his back trying to make him fall in too

“Get in the water!” I said, struggling to take him down

“Never!”

I finally pulled him under, I looked around for him but couldn’t find him, all of a sudden hands wrapped around my foot and pulled me under.

“Harry!” I yelled, slapping his arm

He was laughing “You should’ve seen your face! Priceless!”

He looked adorable, his hair was a mess and his grin made me weak. I wrapped my arms around his neck, he pulled my legs around his waist, holding me up. I smiled and pressed my body against his, kissing him gently. The moment was perfect, I didn’t want to let go. 

He grabbed my hand and walked me to the shoreline, we sat down and he wrapped a towel around me. We sat there in silence, just staring at each other, forgetting the world. It felt amazing, but I also felt too exposed, like he could see every flaw on my body. He picked up my arm and stared at my cuts, making me wince. His face saddened and he placed light kissed on each scar. 

“Please never do that again” He said looking me in the eyes

“I promise Harry”

“Good”

Cutting was a thing of the past. He kissed my nose and hugged me tightly. This right here is what I want to be my future.

A Twist In My Story-Chapter 19 

Everything was going great, until I heard those dreaded words I’d hoped to never hear again;

“I have to leave again babe, I’m sorry”

I sighed and smiled tightly “It’s fine” I lied, trying to make myself believe it, but it wasn’t fine. I’m not sure where the hell he’s going again or why. I didn’t want a fight, all I could do was hide my pain and force myself to believe that I’m okay. 

“Bye love” He said, kissing me on the lips and leaving the hotel room

The room felt as empty as what feelings consumed me. Nothingness. 

I was tired of staring at the walls, I decided to go out, to explore. If he got to go out then why shouldn’t I. 

I didn’t really know where I was going, but I was praying I wouldn’t get lost. I wandered about the streets, France looked beautiful at nighttime, the sidewalks were illuminated by little lights and there were cafes everywhere. I kept walking, suddenly becoming overwhelmed by hunger. Harry was supposed to take me out to dinner tonight, but I guess that wasn’t happening anymore. I saw a boy, who looked about my age, maybe he knew a good place to eat.

“excuse me, do you know any good restaurants?” I asked, forgetting he probably spoke French

“Yes I do gorgeous” he said, surprisingly he spoke English

I blushed “Could you give me directions?”

“No but I could take you”

“I’m sorry, I have a boyfriend” I said, suddenly remembering about Harry

“So? Doesn’t mean I can’t take you out to dinner”

“I don’t even know your name”

“It’s Luke”

“I’m Alex”

“Okay Alex, let’s go.”

I smiled and let him lead me to the restaurant, he was very cute, but he couldn’t compare to Harry. He had light brown hair that brushed above his eyebrows, he had light blue eyes and an adorable smile. 

“We’re here” He smiled and opened the door for me, letting me go in first,

The place was stunning and smelled amazing.

“Table for two” He said to the waitor

“Wait, you’re staying?” I asked, sounding confused

“I can’t just leave a beautiful girl all alone”

“Look cut it with all the flirting, like I said, I have a boyfriend” I said, trying to sound rude. I really wanted him to stay, he seemed so nice, but I didn’t want to do anything that I would regret.

‘I’m not flirting, i’m being a gentleman, my mom brought me up this way”

I smiled and we sat at our table

“So what do you want to eat?” He asked, smiling

He was so cute it was annoying. Every little act of kindness from him ticked me off. It’s like he wants to tease me.  

“I’m not that hungry” And I really wasn’t, I’d lost my appetite.

“I see, well I’m getting bread anyways”

While he ordered I checked my phone, hoping Harry had texted me. Nothing. I sighed and put the phone back into my pocket. 

“Can I see your phone?” He asked

“Sure I guess”

“Nice blackberry” He said, punching something in

“What are you doing?”

“Adding my number and texting myself, now I have your number”

I rolled my eyes and fought off the urge to smile. 

The food came and I took small bites of the bread, really in no mood to eat. 

“You really are beautiful, you know”

I couldn’t take it “For the last time I have a boy-“

“Well, a bad one at that, I don’t know what kind of boyfriend would leave a pretty girl alone in France”

“Thats it!” I stood up and left, I couldn’t handle it anymore. I hate how much he was right, he made me over think everything. What if Harry is a bad boyfriend. What if he’s cheating on me?

Sickened by all my thoughts I ran back to the hotel, trying to escape everything. Everything was going okay, I thought this would be our time, that we wold have fun, but all this vacation is doing is fucking with my head.

I opened our hotel room. Surprise, no one there. I should’ve known. I fell on the bed and cried, so mad at everyone, everything. Mad at Harry for not being here, mad at him for not telling me where he’s going, mad at Luke for being so right, mad at life for being such a  bitch.

I heard a knock on the door and quickly wiped away my tears, I went to open it expecting to see Harry’s beautiful face, but it wasn’t Harry.

“Louis, what the hell are you doing here?”

“What? What are you doing here love, is Harry back yet?”

“He took me with him, what’s going on, why are you here? Come in”

He stepped inside and we sat on the bed “All the boys are here, he didn’t tell you why?”

My heart stopped, afraid of what I was going to hear next.

“Explain” 

A Twist In My Story-Chapter 20

“Well, I don’t think I should tell you, I mean I’ll let Harry do it” He tugged at his shirt nervously

“Pleaaassee Louis?” I scooted closer to him and looked him in the eyes, I leaned in towards his ear and whispered “For me?” 

He shuddered and smiled “Okay okay”

I know it was wrong to toy with him like that, I know he likes me. But I need to know, I really wan’t the truth for once. 

“Well this whole trip is for publicity, we all came here for a bunch of photo shoots, we just had one today, this whole thing is free”

I didn’t know how to react, there was too many emotions at once, at first I felt betrayal, then anger, then sadness, then just pure emptiness. The sickening feeling of nothing at all.

I know I shouldn’t be upset, but he lied, everything he said was a lie. This whole trip was a lie.

“Are you okay Alex?” Louis asked

I realized that I was just sitting there in silence for about 5 minutes

“I guess”  

“No if you’re not okay talk to me, I don’t want you to hold it in”

Before I knew it I was crying in his chest.

“He lied to me Louis” I said in-between sobs

“Shh, it’s okay” He said softly, stroking his hand through my hair

 Louis came under the covers and started cuddling with me. I didn’t care, I didn’t really have the strength to care. I feel stupid being mad for such dumb reasons, I should be happy that i’m here with Harry but if theres one thing I can’t stand it’s lies.

We just lay there for what felt like forever, Louis was an amazing friend, one I could turn to, one I could believe was telling the truth.

“What in the hell do you think you’re doing?” Harry interrupted, I didn’t even realize he came in

“I should leave, I’m sorry” Louis said, getting up from the bed and giving me a sad glance. 

I kind of wished he’d stay, because I knew the moment he would leave things would get ugly.

“Good idea” Harry said, giving him the death glare

Louis left the room and Harry gave me a dirty look

“Care to explain” He said, full of anger

“No, actually I think you have some explaining to do as well”

“What are you talking about!? I didn’t go and hook up with your best friend!”

“We NEVER hooked up Harry, maybe if you were actually here and not lying to me about where you were than you would know that. He actually was comforting me”

“I’m sorry okay! But I didn’t know what to tell you! Why do you over react so much!!”

My heart stopped, I couldn’t believe what he was saying

“I can’t believe you! You lie to me and then make it look like it’s my fault!” 

“I could’ve took someone else!”

“Then why didn’t you!”

“Because I care about you! 

Buzz My phone started to vibrate

“Who the hell is it! Some other guy that you want to hookup with behind my back?”

“What are you saying!? I never ever cheated on you Harry! You clearly don’t understand that!

He ran to my phone and answered it

“Hey Alex, why did you run away? I’m sorry if I was being too flirty for you, come meet me again” His face went pale “Who the fuck is this!?” 

There was a lump in my throat, why the hell couldn’t stupid Luke leave me alone. “Harry, that’s nothing I swear, it’s just some kid I met, he’s really annoying and won’t leave me alone”

“You little slut!” He yelled, regretting it the second it came out “Alex, I-I’m so sorry-I didn’t mean it-I swear, please let’s forget about this fight”

Those words felt like a slap in the face, I looked at him, tried to find something that I loved about him, tried to forgive him, but I couldn’t. He seemed like a monster- Like a stranger.

A single tear rolled down my face as I headed to the door.

“Alex, please where are you going?”

I said nothing, slamming the door behind me as a response. But I knew where I was going, I was going to see Luke. 

A Twist In My Story-Chapter 21

“Luke can you meet me somewhere?” I asked nervously over the phone, I was so desperate for someone to talk to.

“Sure thing babe” 

I rolled my eyes and sighed “I’m not in the mood”

“Aw what happened, did your little boyfriend do something bad” He said in a baby voice

God he’s so annoying. “Just shut up and choose a place to meet me”

“Okay, how about the park? It’s like 5 minutes away from that restaurant you ditched me at. You could apologize you know”

“If I said i’m sorry i’d be lying”

“Owch, sassy”

“Just- Be there” I hung up the phone.

I don’t want to be here, wandering these streets, I want more than anything to go right back to that hotel room and cuddle with Harry, kiss him and let him tell me everything is okay. But I couldn’t no matter how much I wanted to, I couldn’t give in that easily, he needs to know that he can’t do that, but I can only be strong for so long..

I traveled the same path as last time, the streets are no longer so pretty or filled with joy, just another plain road, nothing special about it. Everything, even the country didn’t seem special to me anymore, nothing seemed special unless I could be with Harry. 

“Hey stranger” A voice said behind me, I had arrived at the park without even realizing it, I turned around to see Luke leaning on the monkey bars.

“Hi” I said annoyed. I don’t even know why I’m here, what could he possibly do to fix anything, I hardly even knew the kid, but then I finally realized something. I was there to get Harry mad, to make him jealous or upset, I just want him to feel something.

“I knew you’d be back” He said, winking at me

“Why are you so cocky, it’s annoying”

“Well I guess it’s better than being insecure, I can tell that you are right now by the way you slouch”

I straightened up my back and gave him the death glare. I hated how right he was, I hated how a stranger could read me like a book. “You really piss me off, you know that?”

“We’ll did you come here so you could trash talk me or so you could talk about something serious, because I can see it in your eyes, you’re upset.”

“Stop being so right” 

He smiled and motioned me to sit beside him on the park bench “Just talk, i’m all ears”

“Well I don’t really know how to explain so I guess I’ll just start from the beginning”

I told him everything, he wasn’t as annoying as I assumed he was. He was actually an amazing listener, he seemed like he cared, and that was good enough for me.

“And then he called me a slut and i’m out here with you, I don’t think I can go back to that hotel, not tonight” I said, looking down

“He seems like a jerk, you can stay with me for the night if you’d like” He said looking me in the eyes

I never really realized how pretty his eyes were, they resembled the crystal blue water. I wanted to hit myself, I didn’t want to think those kind of things, Harry is the only one who has beautiful eyes I reassured myself.

“He isn’t a jerk” I said, defending him. But I don’t know if it’s really true, I don’t know whats true anymore to be honest.

“I’m sorry, he’s a perfect boyfriend and he treats you like gold, now do you want to stay at my house or not?”

I hesitated, should I go? I had no other choice, giving in wasn’t an option, even though it sounded so good. I want to feel Harry’s warm breath on my neck and his hands around my waist. I pushed away the thought, I had my mind set.

“Okay but only for tonight” 

He smiled “Come on, it’s dark out, my house is just around the corner”

-

“Nice room” I said, looking around, it was big and was painted all blue. Something about it calmed me, made me relax a little bit.

“Thanks” He smiled.  He looked at me, and I guess he saw me frown “Hey lighten up” 

“I’ll try”

“I know what you need” He said grinning

“Oh god i’m scared” I joked

He went up to his mini fridge and pulled out a bottle of vodka.

“Get buzzed?” He asked, smiling

I sighed “Why not” 

Maybe this is just what I need, just a little fun. I need to stop being so uptight with everything, just one night would’t hurt.

He handed me a glass of cranberry and vodka “Cheers” 

“Cheers” I smiled and drank all of it, the vodka burning  my throat, but I didn’t care, it felt good not to care.

We kept drinking, I forgot how many I had had. We were sitting on his bed and laughing about the dumbest things.

I got up to get another drink but he slapped my butt

“Really?” I asked, laughing

“What? it was tempting”

I giggled and sat on his lap. His hands wrapped around my stomach and slowly went up my shirt, squeezing my boobs over my bra

“Stop Luke” I said, becoming more aware, more sober.

“Come on babe” 

“No I still love Harry, I’m not drunk enough for that shit”

“Fuck him”

I rolled my eyes and got off his lap, I got under the covers and closed my eyes.

“Goodnight”

“Alex, i’m sorry” He said, laying beside me, wrapping his arms around me and cuddling with me.

I had no strength to pull away, half because of the alcohol and half because I was lonely, I imagined it being Harry cuddling with me. It finally hit me, I got drunk with, and now am in bed with someone I hardly know. Maybe Harry was right, maybe I am just a worthless slut.

A Twist In My Story-Chapter 22

Everything was a blur, I looked around the room and I didn’t know where I was. I felt arms wrap around me and I smiled, I was laying with Harry, I turned around to give him a kiss but it wasn’t Harry, it was Luke. What the hell happened last night? I looked down and relief washed over me, I still had my clothes on, nothing bad happened. I quickly got out of the bed and ran out the door and out of his house. 

Guilt took over and I felt worthless. I wonder what Harry will think of all this, if he even cares about me anymore.

I started walking along the streets again, uncertain of where I wanted to go, I just wanted to be somewhere, anywhere but here. I finally gave up, exhausted from walking and dizzy from whatever alcohol I had drank. I pressed my back against a tree and slid down. I didn’t recognize where I was, the streets around me looked different than the ones I had already crossed. I was finally alone. 

“Alex!” A voice called from behind, but I didn’t have to turn around to know it was Harry.

He ran up to me and picked me up, pulling me into a hug

“Alex, i’m so sorry, I didn’t mean to call you a slut, I take back whatever I said, please please forgive me”

I wanted to smile and say yes, but guilt was eating away at me

“You need to know something Harry” I said, staring past him. I didn’t want to see his reaction to what I was going to say.

“What?” 

“I slept over at Luke’s yesterday, you know, the boy that was on the phone” I said, looking at the ground now

He lifted my face and looked me in the eyes, his face was blank and expressionless, it was almost impossible to know what he was going to say next

“Oh.. Did you do anything?” He asked

“No I promise”

“Then I forgive you, do you forgive me? I’ve been looking for you all morning”

I smiled “I forgive you babe” 

His face lit up and he squeezed me tightly

“I really missed you, I was so scared” He whispered into my neck

“I did too”

“To make it up to you I’m taking you somewhere”

I giggled “I hate surprises”

“Too bad” He said, winking

I didn’t really care where we were going, the fact that I was with him again was more than enough. I could be anywhere with him and i’d still be happy.

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“We’re here”  He whispered softly in my ear as he covered my eyes with his hands

I smiled and let him lead me out the door.

he kissed me on the cheek and pulled his hands away. We were standing right below the Eiffel tower. 

I pulled him into a big hug “Harry, I’ve always wanted to come here!” 

“Well now you’re here” He said, kissing me softly

I had a million butterflies, each and every kiss from him feels like our first. Everything was perfect, I was standing under the Eiffel tower with the one I love. Love. I am certain I love him, I can tell by the way he makes me feel, how I melt every time he smiles or looks me in the eyes, how his touch and voice makes me weak and how his kiss fixes me. No matter how lost or broken I am, when i’m with him everything’s okay, everything makes sense. 

“Come on, I have dinner reservations” He smiled and grabbed my arm

“In there?” I asked, pointing towards the Eiffel tower

“Yep!”

I kissed him on the cheek and held his hand.

-

We got off the elevator and Harry led me to a secluded area where we could sit alone. He pulled out my chair for me and motioned me to sit. I smiled and looked to the side where there was a huge window overlooking all of France. 

“Harry, this is beautiful” I said, still overwhelmed.

“Not as beautiful as you” he said, winking

I laughed and looked him in the eyes “You’re so cheesy” 

“But its true” 

“Lies”

“Alex, shut up and accept the compliment. I think you’re flawless”

I smiled and looked down

“Why can’t you see that” He said, lifting up my chin and holding my gaze

“I don’t know, it’s all i’ve ever known I guess. No one has ever called me pretty except for you. I just hate those stupid people who are all cocky about their looks”

“Well you are beautiful, I wouldn’t lie to you about that”

I paused, “Harry, you don’t understand how lucky I am to have you”

He looked at me, there was something in his eyes that caught me off guard. He grabbed my hand and smiled.

“Alex, I’ve been meaning to tell you something, you mean the world to me.. and I lo-“

he didn’t have time to finish before someone interrupted

I looked up and my smile faded.

“Hi i’m Luke, I will be your waiter this evening”

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I didn’t expect to see him again, I wasn’t prepared for this. I guess it showed in my expression because Harry nudged me

“Alex, are you okay?” He whispered. “What’s wrong?”

Luke laughed and grinned “So Alex, this is you’re stupid little boyfriend you’ve been talking about? Bet he took you here to make up for fucking you over, right? How adorable”

Harry’s face went pale “Excuse me? Who the hell are you!?” 

“Oh Alex didn’t tell you? While you were being a douche, she slept with me last night” He winked at me

“Luke, I slept over! I never slept with you!” I said, giving him the death stare

“Stay out of this Alex!” Harry said through clenched teeth

“You really know how to treat a girl, she told me everything. Calling her a slut? Really? That’s low. Alex I could treat you much better” Luke said, putting his hand on my thigh

I grabbed his hand and pulled it off of me

“Touch her again and I swear I will break your face” 

“Oh i’m so scared!” Luke said, stroking my cheek

“Fuck off!” I swatted his hand away

“That’s it” Harry stood up and pushed Luke to the ground

I wanted to scream at them, push them, do something, but I couldn’t move. This was supposed to be our night, this was supposed to be perfect. Every time something’s going good something has to go and ruin it. 

“Stop, please! I’m sorry!”  Luke yelled 

Luke was on the ground and Harry was over him punching him continuously.

“Harry that’s enough!” I yelled 

He turned to me “I’m sorry” 

Luke got up off the floor and tapped Harry on the shoulder

“I’m sorry man, are we cool?” Luke asked, blood dripping from his lip

“Ya, I guess, but don’y ever touch her ag-“

Luke punched Harry across the face

I could barely breathe, this was too much.

“Haha ya right! I would never apologize to you, I’m not sorry for anything, I’m definitely not sorry for touching her when she was … asleep”

My heart stopped. “Wh-what are you talking about” I stammered

“Baby I know you were awake. You were just pretending to be sleeping” 

I stood there frozen, on the verge of tears.

“I’m going to fucking kill you!” Harry yelled, jumping on him and punching his face with all of his strength.

Security came and pulled Harry off of Luke, he was struggling to break free

“I hate you so much” Harry spat

Luke stood there smirking “I love you too, and you’re girlfriend” He winked

Harry’s face was a dark shade of red, I have never seen him so mad before.

“Leave, now” The security guard said, pushing me and Harry towards the elevator

“Bye loves!” Luke yelled, as we walked out the door

-

“Are you okay Alex? I’m so sorry about that, I hate his guts” 

We sat on a nearby bench just beside the Eiffel tower. All throughout the long elevator ride we hadn’t spoken. I really didn’t have the strength to talk and I know he could feel it too.

“Alex, please talk”

He turned my head towards him and tried to look me in the eyes but I couldn’t do it. 

He grabbed my hands “Are you alright?” 

“Honestly.. Not at all” I cried into his shoulder ”He touched me in my sleep Harry. I didn’t want this to happen again” 

“What do you mean, its happened before?”

I stared at the floor, I had said too much “I don’t want to talk about it Harry”

His eyes flooded with concern “I need to know.”

“I was raped when I was younger okay? Are you happy now” I said in-between sobs

He gave me a look so sad I could barely handle it. He hugged me tight, he tried to hold me together. He was the only thing keeping me from breaking again. I know I would never go back to the old me.

He stroked my hair softly and kissed it. We sat there in silence, he didn’t have to talk for me to know that he was sorry, he didn’t have to give me sympathy for me to know he cares. 

“It happened two years ago. That’s why I was so scared of you, I didn’t know if you would do the same”

“No one should ever have to go through that Alex. I’m so sorry.. I shouldn’t have rushed things” 

“And now this. I know what you’re thinking. I know I’m a stupid slut”

Harry grabbed my face and pressed his forehead with mine

“You are not a slut, okay?”

I smiled weakly and looked into his eyes

“I love you” He whispered

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I love you. I repeated his words in my head, I needed to hold on to them, to keep that promise. I had been waiting to hear those words my whole life, when I was younger I used to wait for my prince charming to come, to take me away, I used to wait for my life to be a fairytale. My life may not be a fairytale, it may not be Cinderella or Sleeping Beauty, we have to accept that that stuff doesn’t happen, but right now my life is happy, and nowadays that’s a fairytale in itself.

“You love me?” I whispered back

“Yes Alex, I always have, you are the most amazing girl I have ever met. No one understands me like you do, every time I look in your eyes I can tell that I could never love someone like I love you” 

I smiled “I love you too Harry” 

He kissed me in response, still holding onto me tight.

“Babe? Let’s get out of here” He whispered softly

“Where are we going to go?”

“I don’t want to sit around all day, I wan’t to take you somewhere, I want to make up for tonight. Let’s go explore”

I giggled “You’re crazy! Were in France, we’re going to get lost”

“So? At least we will be lost together.. Pleaseee?” He begged

“Ugh.. Fine.”

“Yay! I wanted to show you this really pretty place”

“Okay, let’s go” I said grabbing his hand.

We were walking the beautiful streets of Paris and this time I wasn’t alone. Everything seemed so much better with him around. He could make the worst things seem wonderful. I don’t know how he does it.

Dusk started to stretch over the sky, making the sky an orange-pink colour. I smiled as Harry wrapped his arm around my waist.

“We’re here love” He said, kissing me softly

I looked around, we were standing inside a beautiful forest, I usually hate forests at night but there were lights strewn across the trees, making the forest look enchanted,

‘“Harry, how did you find this place, it’s gorgeous!”

“Well.. When I went looking for you, you know- After our little fight. I didn’t want to go to bed knowing you were mad at me. I was looking everywhere and I came across this, I knew you’d like it”

“I love it”

“I’m so sorry about the stupid Eiffel tower, that guy was a dick, I should’v-“

I cut him off with a kiss, he pulled away smiling

“Honestly? This is much better than the Eiffel tower. Not as many people.” I said

“Come with me” He grabbed my hand and led me farther into the forest.

There was a big rock with lights all around it, Harry started to climb to the top

“Harry! You’re going to kill yourself!”

He kept climbing and sat on the top “See? I’m fine! get up here!”

I shook my head “There is no way in hell”

“Come on baby, you only live once? Pleaasee?” 

I sighed “Fine! But If I die it’s all your fault” 

“I would die with you, don’t you worry”

“Good” 

I climbed to the top and sat down beside him

“Wasn’t that bad, was it?” 

“I hate when you’re right”

He smiled and messed up my hair.

“Stop that!” 

He laughed and turned my head to the side “Look” 

From up here I could see everything, we were looking down on the whole city. The sun finally disappeared, leaving a full moon and shining stars in it’s place.

“Harry, this is amazing” 

“I know, I think my discovery deserves a kiss”

I smiled and scooted closer to him, sitting on his lap and giving him a big kiss.

I pulled away and rested my head on his chest, he stroked his hand through my hair. 

“I did a lot of thinking up here, when you left” He whispered

“About?”

“About us, I realized that I couldn’t live without you, I could hardly go through that night without you. It finally hit me, that I loved you all along.”

I was smiling like an idiot. I loved him so much it hurt. Today was perfect. 

“Alex?”

“Yes Harry”

“If I ever become famous, I never want to let you go. I don’t care about all the fans and the money. If I can’t have you then I don’t want the fame”

“Harry, there will be plenty of other girls out there, ones that will be better than me. You can’t speak so soon”

“I don’t want anyone else Alex, you don’t understand. I can just tell you’re the one” He looked me deeply in the eyes “I never wan’t to let you go”

“I love you Harry” I whispered, kissing his neck “But I-I just don’t want you to make promises you may not be able to keep”

“I swear to you Alex, I will keep that promise”

“Harry what are you doing?” 

He pulled out a pocket knife and began to carve something in the stone

“I’m proving this to you”

He stopped carving and pulled away. I smiled and looked.

H+A <3

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I didn’t know how to respond at first, it kind of caught me off guard. I smiled and let him pull me into his arms. I looked up at him, into his gorgeous green eyes and I understood that he was telling the truth. 

“Alex?” Harry whispered softly, afraid of breaking the silence

“Yes love?” 

“How did it happen.” 

“How did what happen?”

“How did the- rape happen” He said, each word sounding painful. 

I had to tell him. He deserved to know. “Well, I was at this party when I was about 13 and I was walking home alone and he came out of nowhere and he wouldn’t let me go. I struggled so much and all he did was smile.”

“I’m so sorry” Was all he said, all he really could say. He couldn’t say “I understand” or “I know how it feels” Because he doesn’t, and I appreciate it. I don’t need his sympathy.

“Theres nothing you could do Harry, its over with. I just hate the fact that I let it bother me for so long. I wasted 2 years of my life shutting myself out from everyone, 2 years i’ll never get back. I wish I would’ve met you sooner” 

“It’s okay love, calm down” He whispered

I didn’t realize that I was shaking.

“I’m here now and that’s all that matters, I don’t care what I have to do I will never ever let that happen to you again, I promise”

I felt safe here, in his arms. What he said made me feel okay. 

“Who did it to you?” He asked, stroking my hair softly

I rested my head on his chest “I don’t know, it was too dark to tell, all I could remember was his smirk.- How could he smile Harry? I don’t understand how you can find the amusement in destroying someones life.”

“I want to kill whoever did that to you. I don’t understand either love.” He took a long pause, looking at the stars before continuing “But all that matters; Are you okay now?” 

I looked into the depths of the forest, searching for an answer. I haven’t really thought about it in all honesty, I have everything I want and I’m still not sure if I’m “okay.” I just really don’t know. 

“I guess Harry”

His face saddened “What do you mean you guess? Why aren’t you happy? don’t I make you happy?”

“Of corse you make me happy Harry, but I just haven’t figured myself out yet. If I said I’m okay id be lying to you.”

I moved closer to the edge of the big rock, letting my legs dangle off of it. I looked down on the whole city, feeling on top of the world. Harry scooted closer to me, putting his hand on my lap. I rested my head on his shoulder and he smiled.

“You deserve to be happy love, I really hope you can be”

I kissed him softly and smiled back at him. “I know that one day I will be Harry, no matter how long it takes.- And as long as you’re here I will make sure of it” 

We both sat in silence, laying in each others arms. It was an impossible love, yet it seemed so right. These past few days I’ve been treasuring everything, making sure to remember every last detail like people should do. Thats what messes people up the most, everyone is so sure. They are so certain that the sun will come up, all so positive there will be a tomorrow. One day they wake up and realize that everything they had is gone, that the friends they were so sure were going to be there forever left them and they get stuck in a world of regret, wishing they would’ve held onto it like they should have.

“I just want you to know that I will always be here, no matter what. I love you” He whispered into my neck

I believed him, that was all I could do- have faith in him and hope what he was saying was the truth. 

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I woke up smiling, it felt like forever since I’d last slept in his arms. I turned around to face him and saw that he was awake.

“Good morning baby” He whispered, his voice still sleepy

I smiled at his adorable tone “Morning”

His arms wrapped around me tighter and I put my face in his bare chest, listening to his steady heartbeats

“What’s going on today?” I asked

“Well, I need to do a single photo shoot, the other boys are free though, you can hang with them till I get back” 

“Oh” 

“Im sorry” He kissed me on the forehead

“Its fine, but I can stay here alone you know”

“I don’t want you alone” He said, trying to sound as innocent as possible

“Why?” But I already knew why; He didn’t trust me.

“Because I don’t want you to be bored, I thought you like the boys?”

“Of corse I do”

“Good then, I already talked to them, they are coming now”

“I don’t need a babysitter Harry” I said, sounding irritated

“Alex, don’t be silly, I just want you to have fun!”

“Fine”

He got up from bed and threw on a Jack Wills shirt and shorts.

“Ill be back soon babe, enjoy yourself”

“mhmm” 

He kissed me on the lips and then he was gone. It wasn’t worth getting mad over so I let it slide. I started to get ready, the boys would be here soon and I wanted to look the slightest bit presentable. I took a long shower, letting the hot water soothe me. I dried my hair and straightened it, put on a touch of makeup and threw on black shorts and one of Harry’s blue shirts.

-

“Alex!” Niall yelled, picking me up and hugging me

“Hey Niall” I giggled

I looked back at the door and Lauren was standing there smiling

“Lauren!” I jumped down and hugged her “Come in guys”

We sat down on the bed, Lauren sat in Niall’s lap and I couldn’t help but feel jealous. 

“So how are you guys enjoying France?” I asked 

“Its been amazing! Niall has taken me everywhere, Its so beautiful. How about you?” 

I smiled weakly “Its been pretty good, Harrys busy a lot but he spends time with me when he can”

“Oh, Im sorry”

“Its fine”

I sat there awkwardly in silence, there was another knock on the door, I opened it.

“Hey babe” Zayn said, winking at me

I rolled my eyes playfully and gave him a hug

“Can I come in?” He asked

“Nope”

He picked me up and walked inside with me over his shoulder, I giggled

“Zayn put me down!”

He threw me on the bed and sat down beside Niall. Before I could start to talk someone knocked on the door again, I sighed

“Coming!”

I walked to the door and it was Liam and Louis.

“Hey guys!”

“Hey love” They both said, pulling me in for a group hug

Everyone was sitting on the bed talking and having fun, I loved hanging out with them but for some reason I missed Harry a lot. I wanted him to be here, to hold me like Niall holds Lauren, I don’t want him to be at a photoshoot, getting more and more famous and slowly slipping away from me. 

Louis put his arm around me and looked me in the eyes “Hey, lighten up beautiful”

I smiled “Sorry”

“Is everything alright?”

I felt everyones eyes on me, “Ya Im fine”

“Aww you miss Harry don’t you?” Liam said

I saw Louis frown. “She’s fine Liam”

“Gosh, sorry mr cranky”

I giggled and Louis shot me a dirty look

“Guys Im hungry” Niall said

“Woah that’s a surprise” Louis joked

I laughed “Theres some croissants on the counter” 

‘Yes!” He ran over to the table

Lauren smiled at me “I’ve missed you Alex” 

I reached out and hugged her “You too!” 

“What the hell man, you all have hot girlfriends and I’m just sitting here being single and jealous” Zayn interrupted

Louis laughed “It’s okay Zayn, you can date me” 

“Sounds good man, get some plastic surgery and you’ll be perfect”

We were all laughing and having fun, everything was going great. I heard another knock on the door.

“Alex, are you expecting anyone else?” Louis asked

“No, thats odd”

Lauren looked at me“Its probably Harry” 

A smile spread across my face and I ran to the door. I opened it slowly, biting my lip. My heart stopped and I clenched my fists.

“What the fuck are you doing here.”

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He pushed me up against the wall and slammed his lips onto mine, I  struggled to break free out of his grip. 

“Get off!” I screamed, pushing him with all my force

“Alex, whats going on?!” Liam ran to the door

“He won’t leave me alone! Luke I don’t like you! Please get out, you’ve done enough” I said, fighting back tears

“But you don’t understand! Harry isn’t who you think he is Alex” 

“Who the hell is this guy?” Liam interrupted, but I barely heard it. I was so fixated on what Luke last said.

“What are you talking about?!” I spat 

“Your precious little Harry doesnt have eyes for only you, Ive seen him around with other girls. I just wanted to treat you right Alex, its what you deserve” 

“Why the hell should I believe you!” 

Liam hugged me tight“Harry would never do that, he always talks about how much he loves her” 

He smirked, it made me sick. He enjoys messing with my head. Why cant he just leave me alone. 

My lip trembled, I was dangerously close to tears, but I couldnt let him win. “Just leave Luke!”  

“I just thought you should know Alex, you deserve to know the truth”

“Get out!” I yelled, pushing him out the door

“Hes a cheater-“ 

I slammed the door in his face and slid down the wall, my emotions finally getting the best of me. 

“Alex, dont cry love” Zayn came over and picked me up, placing me on the bed and letting me cry in his chest.

‘What happened?” Niall asked, wiping a tear off my cheek

Lauren slapped his arm “Shh, leave her be”

I wasn’t in the mood to be with everyone, I hate being the centre of attention. I wanted to be alone to think. I was already letting Luke get to my head, what if he’s right? What if Harry really is cheating on me? Everything didn’t seem to make sense, I wanted to fall asleep and forget the world. When you’re sleeping, nothing can touch you, nothing can bother you. When your asleep dreams take over and even if its for a little bit, reality is non-existent. 

“That guy seems like a dick” Zayn said, stroking my hair

“You don’t know the half of it” 

“Don’t worry babe, Harry wouldn’t cheat on you” Niall said

“I hope you’re right” 

“If he is we will all beat the shit out of him” 

I giggled “I would join you”

“So are you all better now? Stupid bilingual kid off your mind?” Liam asked

I attempted to smile, “Ya I think so” 

But I wasn’t so sure, I still was confused. No matter how much I wanted to believe Luke was lying, there was still something bothering me. 

“Good, we hate to see you sad. Now who wants to order a pizza?” 

We all laughed “Niall why are you always so hungry!” 

“I dunno, food is amazing”

My phone buzzed and I opened a new text

Harry: Hey love, hows the boys? 

I wanted to respond, but I couldn’t. Something was holding me back. I had a sick feeling in my stomach. 

“Who is it?” Louis asked

“Ohh, its just my mom, she misses me” I lied. “Anyways, Ill call the pizza place, if there is any in France”

“Oh I found a really good place, Ill call it right now” Lauren said, picking up her phone and dialling the number

“Thats my girl” Niall said, kissing her on the cheek 

I smiled and looked away. They were too good of a couple, I couldn’t  be in the same room with them without getting jealous. Every time I look at them I can tell that they love each other, that they will never grow apart. They seem so trouble free, and I just wish I could have that.

We were all eating the pizza and I kept checking my watch. I had this really weird feeling, like I wanted Harry to come home but I didn’t. Either way I knew he’d be home soon. Everyone had to leave and we said our goodbyes

“Bye Alex, feel better! We need to go shopping here, are you free tomorrow?” Lauren asked, hugging me tight

“Ya we do, Im free. Ill text you”

Zayn hugged me and kissed me on the cheek “Bye babe” 

“Bye Alex! Call me if that Idiot bothers you again” Liam said, joining in the group hug

“Bye guys!”

“Bye! Thanks for the Pizza” Niall joined in

“Goodbye love” Louis kissed me on the cheek, and then they were all gone

Silence filled the room and I was finally alone. I collapsed on the bed and stared at the perfectly white ceiling. I didn’t really know what to do, I tried taking a nap but insomnia kept me awake, I tried thinking but I couldn’t process much, everything was a jumble in my head, things didn’t make sense. 

“I’m back!” Harry yelled closing the door behind him

I wanted more than anything to run and give him a hug, to let him hold me and tell me that what Luke said wansnt true, but I couldn’t get myself to move. “Hi” Was all I managed to say. A simple, dry, hi.

“How are you love?” He asked, sitting next to me and sliding his arm around me 

I looked away “Fine, you” I couldn’t help it, I couldn’t get myself to have a conversation with him. The possibility of what Luke said was eating at me. 

He turned my face towards him and looked me in the eyes “Somethings wrong, what?”

“Nothing Har-“

“Alex, whats wrong” 

I took a long pause, searching for words. “Well, I need you to tell me if this is true” 

“If whats true love?”

“Ar- are you cheating on me?” I whispered, staring at the floor

He sighed and gave me a sad look before continuing. I closed my eyes, afraid of what I was going to hear next.

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“No. Why would you think that? You don’t trust me?’ He said, sounding hurt. 

Relief washed over me, he wasn’t cheating on me. There was something in the way he said it, by the way he looked at me, I could tell that what he was saying was true. 

“I’m sorry, but someone said that you were and I guess I just let it get to my he-“

“Who would say that?” 

I sighed, “Luke, he came over today. I hate that kid.”

His expression changed to pure anger “Why won’t that stupid kid leave” 

“Calm down Harry, I don’t think he’s coming back. Im really sorry for accusing you”

“You believed him..” He whispered faintly, staring at the ground

“Im sorry, I shouldnt have, but he just got to my head”

“Why would you trust Luke instead of me? You didn’t even answer my text, I was really worried about you” 

I tried to reach out, to touch him, but he swatted my hand away. “Harry, please don’t do this” 

“Look Alex, I’m tired. I need some sleep. Goodnight”

“Don’t do this” 

But he was already under the covers, eyes shut. He was purposely on the far end of the giant bed, leaving a cold, empty space in-between us. 

“You can’t go to sleep.” I said, frustrated. He knew my weakness. No matter what happens, I can’t stand when people leave or go to bed mad at me, I always need to fix things. He knows that I won’t be able to sleep. 

‘Harry, please-“ 

Silence. I buried my face in my hands and wept quietly, all the stress of todays events haunting me. 

Harry sighed and sat up. “Alex, don’t cry- Im sorry, this isn’t even a big deal, Im being a jerk” He scooted closer to me and pulled me into his chest and wiped a falling tear from my cheek. 

“Harry?”

“Yes love”

“Luke- He kissed me. I pulled away, I swear.”

“I am seriously going to kill that guy. I trust you baby, don’t worry”

I smiled as he kissed my forehead. This one moment gave me hope, it made me believe that we can get over anything together. That no matter what happens, we can always find a way to solve it, together. 

“Okay, goodnight Harry”

“Goodnight baby” He whispered into my ear, kissing it softly and placing his head in the crook of my neck. “Oh, and Alex?”

“Yea”

“I love you” 

I smiled “I love you too”

-

“I don’t want to go to the mall anymore, I mean, were in France, we don’t need to go shopping” Lauren said over the phone

“True that, what were you thinking?”

“We could walk around?”

“Gah. I hate walking”

“Too bad. Oh ya, can Niall come?”

“Why not, can Harry come”

“Double date!” She squealed

I laughed “You’re such a loser” 

“Well excuse me for being excited” 

“Who are you talking to babe?” Harry interrupted, getting up from bed and kissing me on the cheek

“Aww sorry for waking you, I’m talking to Lauren, if its okay were hanging with her and Niall today”

“Sure thing. Hi Lauren!”

She giggled “Hi sleepy head, its 1:00 you know”

“Shh I’m on vacation” 

I grabbed the phone from his hands “Go get changed” 

“Actually I was planning on wearing my boxers”

“Very funny Haz. Now go!” I laughed, slapping his butt

He winked “Rawrrr”

I rolled my eyes and giggled “Anyways, I gotta go. I’ll text you, bye Lauren!” 

“Bye Alex” 

I hung up and turned to Harry, who was already fully dressed. 

“Well that was fast” 

‘He smiled and sprayed axe for the final touch.

“Give me a hug.” He said, moving closer

“Why?”

“I smell irresistible” He grinned and pulled me in for a hug

I smiled and buried my face in his chest. He knew axe made me weak. 

He pulled away, leaving me wanting more. I pressed my lips against his, I could feel his lips form a smile, he knew he had me. It quickly turned into a make out session and he pushed me onto the bed, climbing on top of me. I pulled my lips away. “We should go meet them now.” I barely managed to say, I was breathless and his lips met my neck, searching for my weak spot. “mm, Harry stop. We need to go” 

“Fine, but we need to continue this soon. I should wear axe more often.” He winked and climbed off of me 

I smiled and looked in the mirror, fixing my now messed up hair. I saw three love bites and I laughed. “Look at what you did to me” 

“I marked my territory” 

I giggled “Come on lets go”

-

“Hey guys!” I yelled, pulling them in for a group hug

We were at a little cafe named “Sucre” Lauren claimed that it was really good so we decided to try it out. 

“When are we all leaving?” Lauren asked, sitting down beside Niall

“Tomorrow morning, sadly” Niall answered

“Aww” 

“Ya I think its like at 5:00 in the morning, thats going to suck” Harry interrupted

I grabbed his hand “You need to fall asleep at a decent time”

Harry laughed “You sound like my mom”

“Maybe I am your mom’

“Ew, Im dating my mom”

We were all having a great time, for once I didn’t feel one hint of jealousy. With Harry here with me there is nothing to be jealous about, he’s all that I ever need. 

Niall fed Lauren a chocolate crepe, purposely smearing chocolate on her face. She giggled “Wow, aren’t we just the cutest couple” Niall joked

“Nope I think we are” Harry laughed, putting chocolate on my face and kissing it off 

“Eww get off me” I giggled, squirming on his lap 

“No way man, were the cutest couple” Niall said, kissing Lauren’s forehead

“Nope!” 

“We don’t want to be a part of your games” Lauren teased

“You’re just scared that were cuter!” Harry said, sticking his tongue out at her

“Ohh its on” she kissed Niall on the cheek

“You think thats cute?” Harry said, pulling me in and making out with me

“Eww, thats not cute thats gross! You lose!”

“Whatever, it was worth it” He winked at me and leaned in close to my ear and whispered “Don’t worry were still cuter”

I giggled and hit his arm playfully. 

The day went by pretty fast, it was a lot of fun hanging out with them. Night came quicker than I expected and we headed back to our hotels. Tomorrow we would be leaving, going back to our old life.  No more France. Im not going to lie, I kind of miss it back home. I’m tired of this place, tired of Luke, sometimes we need a vacation from a vacation.

Before I knew it I was asleep in Harrys arms, kissing my reality goodnight and letting my dreams consume me. 

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The airport was horribly busy, a great way to start off a Sunday morning. I was still half asleep and I wasn’t in the mood for anything, I wasn’t in the mood for rude flight attendants giving me dirty looks and I definitely was not in the mood for what happened next.

“I-Is that Harry Styles!” A short tan girl with long brown hair squealed from across the room 

He turned around and gave her a sweet smile, she ran over, causing many other girls to follow. I rolled my eyes and tugged on his sleeve “Harry let’s go, I don’t like where this is going. we’re going to be late”

“Shh.. Babe come on, I have fans! At least let me say hi”

“Fine” I grumbled, crossing my hands over my chest and acting like a 5 year old girl. 

I looked around to see that all of the boys had their proper groups of fans surrounding them, I looked at Lauren and Niall, Lauren was smiling and giving the girls hugs. I hate how perfect she is.

Harry met up with the girls, exchanging hugs and signing things. Jealousy washed over me and I couldn’t help but turn my head. One of them, a flawless tall girl with blonde hair, pointed at me and gave me a rude glare. Harry smiled and waved me over. Maybe this was it, he would tell all the girls that we’re dating so they would back off and leave us alone. I attempted a smile and walked over, the looks I received were cold and unpleasant.

“Who is this” The blonde girl asked in a mocking tone. 

Instead of giving her a rude glare back, I smiled at her, killed her with kindness. Harry was about to say that we are together and surely she would envy me.

Harry smiled and wrapped his arm around my shoulder “This is Alex.. She’s uhmm.. My sister” 

The smile on my face vanished and the feelings inside of me were flooded with betrayal. How could he say i’m his sister. Was he embarrassed to be with me? 

“Yup that’s me, Harry’s sister haha” I said, more annoyed than ever “I need to go to the washroom, don’t bother coming with me, have fun with your fans” I stared up at him, his eyes full of pain, he knew he would pay for it later.

I stormed off and heard the girls still talking in the distance, I could barely make out what they were saying but I heard enough

“What’s her problem?”

“Is that really your sister?”

I was walking who knows where, I knew i’d get lost, I was in a giant airport with absolutely no direction but I didn’t care, I wanted to be far away from Harry. I tried my best to push it away, scared of my own thoughts, but this one kept coming back; Is it really worth it. I love Harry, and although he fucks with my head and puts me through things I shouldn’t have to go through, I’d really like to think he’s worth it. He is worth it. I assured myself, but I really don’t know, he’s becoming everything I was afraid he would ever be.

Lost in my thoughts, I banged into somebody, I looked up to see Louis standing there with a sorry look on his face

” Woops sorry love. Hey is everything alright?” 

“Not really, Harry told the fans I was his sister”

“Oh no”

“Hey Lou come with me I have an idea, just play along for now” 

“Sure thing” 

I grabbed his hand and walked over to the group of girls, still suffocating Harry. He was smiling and laughing, not affected at all by my absence. I smiled and walked towards them with Louis still by my side.

“Oh look your sister is back” The blonde girl rolled her eyes 

“Oh my god it’s Louis!”

“Alex, are you and Harry dating?” 

I laughed and looked at Harry, his face sad, he stared at the ground

“Am I with Harry!? Haha, no silly im his sister!” I said, hoping the words would hurt him as much as it hurt me

If he wanted to play those games, I could play them back

I smirked, “Besides, how can I be dating Harry if i’m already dating Louis” 

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The look on his face tore my heart, He deserves this I tried to make myself believe. He looked at the ground and sighed.

“Isn’t it weird Harry? Your sister and your best friend dating?”

He looked at me blankly, stared right through me. “No.. I mean, she’s my sister… I support her with whatever she chooses.. I love her” And then it was his turn to walk away

Guilt washed over me, things would be much harder to fix now, I love him too much for him to be hurt, at least with me i’m used to the pain.  I squeezed Louis hand “I will be back” 

“Okay. Bye love” He kissed me on the cheek for effect

I forced a smile and chased after Harry, I saw him sitting in the far corner with his face in his hands. I sat down beside him. 

“Alex look, I don’t want to talk, l understand that you like Louis more”

“Harry, I love you, I like Louis as a friend, I only did that so you could feel the pain I felt”

“Well it worked”

“I know that you’re embarrassed to have me as a girlfriend, i’m sorry” 

He grabbed my face and forced me to look into his gorgeous green eyes “Alex, I could never be embarrassed. I don’t deserve you, I fuck everything up and you still have the patience for me. I love you so much. I am so sorry I said you were my sister, I don’t know what got into me”

I smiled “It’s okay baby I forgive y-“

“Shh, just please kiss me” He closed his eyes and slowly moved in

“Haz, what will people think if you kiss your.. sister and I cheat on.. Louis”

“I don’t care, I will explain to everyone, I need to kiss you”

I smiled and closed the space in-between us. The kiss was soft and needy, he pulled me closer and wrapped his arms around me. I could feel all eyes on us and I wanted the kiss to last forever, knowing that when we pull away, bad things would happen. There were gasps and whispers, and all of a sudden a camera flash. I froze and quickly pulled away.

“Why did you kiss your sister!?” Someone screamed from the big crowd surrounding us

Harry needed to fix things, and fast. Who knows what they can do with that picture.

“She isn’t my sister okay. She is my girlfriend and I love her, I lied because I’m stupid”

I smiled and grabbed his hand

“Let’s get out of here, our plane is boarding” 

Relief washed over me, I wanted to be far away from these people, this place. I wanted to leave France along with the problems it’s caused. 

We sat on the plane, I took the window seat. Across from us was Niall and Lauren. behind us was Louis and Zayn and Liam was sitting by himself. We were already up in the air, Harry was asleep on my shoulder and he was snoring lightly, making me smile. Zayn kept poking me on the face from behind to annoy me, at one point I ended up turning around and slapping him, making him laugh like a maniac. I wanted to get home, I have to admit, I missed my parents like crazy. I decided to sleep, it was about 7:00 in the morning and I was exhausted. I closed my eyes and finally dozed off

-

“Wake up babe, we’ve landed” Harry whispered in my ear, shaking me softly

I smiled and shook my head

‘I’ll get her up” Zayn yelled and started poking my face again

“Leave her alone” Harry slapped his arm

“Im up, Im up you idiot” I sat up and gave Zayn a dirty look

“Good morning to you too baby” He smiled and hugged me

“Let’s go! I hate this plane” Harry picked me up and put me down

I started walking out of the plane, still tired. Harry slapped my butt, I turned around to see his devilish grin

“What? You werent walking fast enough” 

I rolled my eyes and giggled. 

“Hey I want to slap her butt!” Zayn pouted

Harry stuck his tongue out “I want to slap your face, keep moving” 

“Fine man, no need to be aggressive”

I smiled and hit Zayn playfully on the arm

-

“Mom! Dad!” I dropped my bags and ran through the door, hugging them tightly

“We’ve missed you” My mom said kissing me on the forehead

My dad hugged me tighter “How was it” 

“It was great” 

I looked to the door to see Harry leaning on it, smiling “Im sorry for interrupting your family moment, I just wanted to say bye” 

My mom laughed “No no, sweetie don’t be silly. You can stay for dinner if you’d like” 

“If that’s okay?” 

“Of corse, we’ve made plenty of food” 

“Thank you” 

“I gotta go unpack, Harry come help” I smiled

“Sure” 

We ran upstairs into my room and I jumped on my bed, cuddling up to the pillows

“Oh bed. How ive missed you” 

“Ive missed your bed too” He grinned and jumped on it, moving the pillow away and forcing me to cuddle with him

I smiled “Finally I have internet connection, Ive been dying to check my twitter” 

I opened my computer and went on twitter, only to find hate mail and a picture, the picture of me and Harry kissing. My smile faded.

“Alex baby are you okay?” 

“The picture is leaked and now i’m getting hate”

“Im so sorry love” 

His phone buzzed, he opened it and read the message, his face turning a pale shade of white. 

“Harry.. What happened”

“No baby, it’s nothing”

“Harry. Give me your phone” 

“No really it’s nothing..Its just my manager”

I sat up from bed and grabbed his phone, he looked at the ground, tears threatening to escape his eyes

I opened the message

Harry, I saw the picture of you and your girlfriend, Im sorry to say but if you want a career in music, you need to get rid of her. She isn’t good for your image. 

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“Alex… baby, don’t worry about it”  Harry lightly stroked my cheek

How can he just shrug it off like that? My heart stopped. I was on the verge of tears, and all he had to say was don’t worry about it. How could I not? Everything hit me at once, overwhelmed me and I realized that I couldn’t be with him. The manager made it clear, me or his career. Sometimes you have to sacrifice things for the people you love. 

“Harry, we can’t be together, this isn’t going to work”

“Love we can make this work!” He turned my face towards him and made me look him in the eyes, I tried to find something, try to hold onto the hope that sparked in them, but I couldn’t. Not anymore.

“Please leave” I whispered, staring blankly at him. My voice was unsteady, tears dangerously close.

“Stop it. Look at me Alex, I don’t care about my manager, I’ll quit my job if I have too. I need you..” He pulled me in and kissed me

I fought off the urge to kiss back. I needed to be strong, for him. This is all for him. He will thank me for it one day. Thank himself for forgetting about me.

“Why didn’t you kiss back?” He asked, his voice laced with pain. 

My heart broke as I realized what I had to do next. It took everything inside of me.

“Harry we need to break up”

“Alex, you’re being crazy. I love you.. You love me too remember?” Silence filled the room, Tears streamed down his face and he choked on his words “Remember?”

“The truth Harry? I don’t love you” My heart tore apart with each word. I needed to lie to him so he could move on. All I wanted was to wipe his tears away and kiss him like I’ve never kissed him before, but this isn’t about me anymore. 

“Don’t. Please Alex you’re breaking my heart” 

“You deserve the truth” 

“I can’t believe you” He stood up and looked at me, his eyes didn’t seem as green anymore, the colour muted by his cold distance. He slowly backed out of my room, never breaking his gaze. “I-I love you” And with that he was gone. Leaving me alone to drown in my thoughts.

-

I lost all track of time as I wept in my room, locking my door and ignoring the constant attempts of comfort from my parents. 

Too much time. I tried to push the thought of him out of my mind, but he’s all I ever think of. What am I going to do? I picked up my phone, reminiscing on our old texts, smiling through my tears. Delete. No matter how hard it was I needed to try and erase him out of my thoughts, out of my dreams, out of my- Life. 

It amazes me at how easy it is for things to change. Just one false step, one wrong word and everything can turn around. It was only yesterday, he tickled me and kissed me and looked at me like I was the world. Now, I’m stuck in my room crying over him when it’s all my fault. I shouldn’t have gotten so mad over the whole sister thing, I shouldn’t have pretended Lou was my boyfriend. If I wouldn’t have been so immature there would be no picture, no text from his manager, no heartbreak.

-

*Harry’s Pov* 

I’m dying without her. I can’t take it. The guys came over, tried to cheer me up, but nothing seemed to be working. I stared at the wall the whole time. I couldn’t get her off my mind. 

Too many thoughts haunted me, so many possibilities it made my head spin. I just want to kiss her again, hold her tight and tell her how beautiful she is. Even if it’s true-Even if she doesn’t love me, I will never stop loving her. The guys told me “Id get over it” They don’t understand, no one understands. She understands.. I need her.

*End of pov*

So I lay awake, staring out the window at the starry sky. I decided I need some sleep, I need an escape from the pain. 

*Harry’s pov*

I was tired of thinking, it was getting late. I closed my eyes and tried to imagine us together. Maybe i’d dream of her. 

“Goodnight Alex” I sighed

*End of pov*

“Goodnight Harry” I whispered faintly to my empty room, realizing he wasn’t there to hold me and say it back. 

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Harry_Styles: I miss her like crazy. Where did I go wrong?
It’s been a week without him. I’ve ignored all of his attempts to contact me. I’ve been dying inside, but I’ve lived. I picked up my phone, itching to dial his number that I’ve remembered so well. Alex, this is for him. It’s all for him I reminded myself, putting my phone down and sighing. Today was the x-factor finale, it’s been marked on my calendar ever since he told me I was going with him, but of corse that was before all this. That was when life was going okay.

Today, I couldn’t think of one reason to get out of bed. What was the point? I sound pathetic. I am pathetic. My whole life has revolved around him and now I don’t know what to do with myself anymore. I’ve felt empty this whole week, like everything inside me has been poured out and i’m left with nothing. I mean it’s only been a week. Why am I so desperate?

A phone call startled me and I sat up from bed grabbing it with false hopes, it wasn’t him. Even if it was I wouldn’t answer it. I just want to know he’s okay.

“Hello?” 

“Alex! This is Lou”

“Oh.. Hi Lou” I sighed

“Alex, you need to talk to Harry he-“

“Louis, you don’t understand-“

“No no, you don’t know what’s been going on. He’s been refusing to eat and he can’t sleep and he looks pale an-“

“I-is he okay?” I asked, scared.

“No Alex, he needs you. He said he won’t do anything until he sees you..”

All the numbness was replaced with agonizing pain and sadness and I started to cry. I’ve done this to him. I thought I was helping him. 

“Love don’t cry”

“This is all my fault”

“You can fix it. Actually you’re going to have to. He refuses to come tonight, he has been acting horrible. We miss the old him. He really loves you Alex..”

“Okay I’ll come tonight. How can I help?”

“Just show up, forgive him for whatever he’s done”

“He didn’t do anything”

“Well Harry hasn’t told us anything. What happened?”

“Your stupid manager sent him a text saying we can’t be together. His career is more important than me. I only wanted what was best” I stared at the ground

“Love, we can talk to the manager. Now get ready, I’ll pick you up in an hour” 

“Okay bye Lou”

Happiness sparked inside me. I would see him tonight. Everything would be okay. Maybe, just maybe we could even be together again. I ran to my bathroom and jumped in the shower, I curled my hair and put on a mini black dress. I looked in the mirror, happy at my reflexion. I applied makeup and before I knew it there was a knock on the door

“Louis!” I hugged him and smiled

He looked me up and down and grinned “Wow Alex, you look beautiful.. Harry is one lucky guy”

“That is if he takes me back.. I told him I didn’t love him so he would let me go”

“Trust me. He needs you babe. Let’s go”

*Harry’s Pov*
I have been weak ever since she broke up with me. Tonight is the finale and I don’t want to go. I don’t care about my stupid career if it means losing her. I need her back. 

*1 new text. Louis Tomlinson; 
Hey man, Alex is coming tonight, you better get your ass down here and sing or else im keeping her for myself

My heart skipped a beat at the mention of her name. She was coming tonight. This was my chance. I quickly got changed and fixed my hair, I ran out the door and called Zayn

“Bro can you pick me up?!” 

“Harry! Man you’re alive! A nice hello would be greatly appreciated”

“Shh theres no time for your fucking sarcasm”

“Sorry. Are you coming tonight?”

“Yes yes, now get over here”

“Okay okay, gosh, is Alex like naked or something? Is that why you’re in such a rush?”

“Very funny.. I wish. Now get!” I smiled like a maniac but then two things hit me, two possibilities that could make this night a disaster. What if we got eliminated? And even worse, what if she won’t take me back? I had to forget about it, worrying wont help anything. Hunger consumed me and I realized that I haven’t eaten in forever-Wasn’t in to mood to, really. 

“I’m here man! Get your ass outside, we’re going to be late” Zayn yelled through the phone

“Coming!” I ran outside and jumped on Zayn, who was tapping his foot, annoyed. He looked nervous, maybe he was scared of being voted off too. 

“Wow, you don’t seem dead anymore! Man you looked like a fucking zombie-“

“Shut up. Let’s go” 

Zayn smiled and patted me on the back, I really did miss him. We got in the car and we were off.

“Zayn?”

“Yea?”

“Do you think she will take me back?”

His lip curved into a smile, still faced the road as he continued

“I know she will. And if she doesn’t? She’s mine” 

I slapped his arm and smiled

“I mean- then you’re too good for her”

“Better”

And then the same silence filled the car.

“Harry?”

“Mhm”

“Do you think we will get-You know.. Eliminated?”

It could honestly go any way. There was us, Rebecca and Matt, who knows what would happen- maybe it was best. We’ll find out soon enough. 

“I think we have a fairly good chance of not being eliminated” 

“And if we do?”

“Well then we will find something else. Who knows, maybe we can still have a music career, but whatever happens I know we will never lose touch”

Zayn smiled, then laughed “Man you’re gay”

“Shut up i’m trying to make you feel better cause you’re a pussy”

“Am not”

“I am not arguing over whether or not you are a pussy”

“Fine.. But I’m not.”

As we got closer I got even more scared. I missed seeing her beautiful face everyday, I missed waking up to her cuddling me and I miss her kisses and her smile and her giggle. 

Me and Zayn walked backstage, my palms were sweaty and I kept looking behind my shoulder, I was going insane.

“Dude, calm down okay. You’ll see her.”

“I cant help it!”

“You look like one of those guys from-“

But I tuned him out. I couldn’t hear anything else, see anyone else, my eyes were fixated on her, standing so close it hurt. It was her. I was sure of it. It was the same girl that stole my heart. I started to move closer, my heart pounding with every step. And then I called out to her

“Alex-“

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She turned around and smiled, taking my breath away, she looked gorgeous. 

“Harry!” She ran over and hugged me

“Baby, I missed you so much-“

“Harry, I’m so so sorry. I just wanted what was best. I’ve never stopped loving you. I always have loved you. Please forgive-“

I kissed her passionately and held onto her like she was everything- she is my everything. Every piece of me mended and I felt alive again.

I pressed my forehead with hers and looked into her beautiful brown eyes “I forgive you, love”

“I told you she’d take you back” Zayn interrupted

I rolled my eyes. “Zayn, do you mind?”

“Sorry man, we’re on in 10. Stop eating Alex’s face and be prepared for the worst”

“Alright, alright”

She grabbed my hand and led me to the couch, pushing me down softly and laying on top of me. I smiled and wrapped my arms around her, holding her close. I nuzzled my face in her neck and kissed it lightly, her touch, her smell so familiar and comforting it overwhelmed me.

*End Of Pov*

I cuddled impossibly close, our bodies together, our heartbeats becoming one. He was what kept me warm on the coldest of days, he opened my eyes to things I could never really see. I really did miss him. 

‘Alex?” He said softly

“Yes?”

“Are we together again?”

I smiled and buried my face in his chest “We’re we ever really apart?”

“This is extremely adorable, but Harry we gotta go on now. I’m so nervous!” Niall was pacing anxiously.

Harry looked me deep in the eyes and sighed “Bye for now love. Wish us luck”

I kissed him softly “Good luck baby”

I stood up and hugged all of the boys before watching them go on stage. I felt sick, there was this mix of emotions;

pride

anxiety

guilt

happiness

fear

This was it. This one moment could change everything. One part of me wanted them to make it, wanted them to become big and famous so he could be happy. Then another part of me wanted them to lose, to leave this competition so we could live a normal life, no stupid managers or crazy fans to deal with. What kind of a person am I? 

-

“The second act still in the final is….. Rebecca” 

I didn’t know what to do with myself. I was in shock, my heart was aching and I couldn’t stop looking at the sad look on their faces. If I could get my legs to move, if I could wipe my flooding eyes, I’d run on stage and comfort them. Maybe this is best. I thought. How selfish could I possibly be? I am a horrible person, a terrible, non-supportive girlfriend. I don’t deserve him.

He walked backstage, head down staring at the floor. He moved right by me, barely acknowledging my open arms. I let it slide, gave him some time to recover.

“I’m so sorry guys” 

They all pulled me in for a group hug except for Harry, still alone. It tears me apart to see him like this. 

“You may not have made this but I can tell you guys are going to go far”

“You really think so?” Liam looked up, his face full of sadness

“I promise”

They pulled me in tighter and then walked away, off to see their families and friends, ready to receive sympathy, ready to go back to their sickening reality. 

*Harry’s Pov*

There were too many emotions coursing through me. I couldn’t accept Alex’s comfort, I feel like i’ve failed her. She’s probably disappointed in me. I wanted to win this for her, this was all for her. 

“Harry, please. Talk” 

I gave in, hugging her and weeping. She must think i’m a wuss.

“Shh, Harry you gave it your all. I am so proud of you. I know you’ll make it someday”

Suddenly, I didn’t feel so sad anymore. It’s amazing what she does to me. “Alex?”

“Yes?”

“One day- if I do make it.. I want to share everything with you”

She giggled and looked at me like I was some kind of joke “Harry, stop saying things like that. I don’t even know whats going to happen tomorrow”

“I do. I’m taking you out. Be a little bit more open minded love.. Believe”

“I just don’t want to be disappointed”

“You know what I want?”

We were back on the couch, cuddling again.

“What is that?”

“I want to grow old together. I want to have a girl- name her Darcy”

“Thats sweet” She smiled and kissed me on the lips

*End Of Pov*

I smiled as I listened to his steady heartbeat. In a time like this, even when he should be sad- he can still dream. He can still take away reality and create a better place where he can be happy. That gives me hope. 

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“Stop it!” I yelled in-between giggles, struggling to break free

“I won’t stop tickling you until you say that i’m sexy!” He smiled and continued to tickle me

 ”Harry! I can’t breathe!” 

Almost immediately he stopped. “I’m sorry lov-“

I flipped him over and started tickling his neck, his weak spot. 

“Alex! Get off me” He laughed and squirmed 

“Payback!!!”

“Thats it” He threw me over his shoulder and walked up to his room, placing me down on his soft bed that I’ve missed so much. “No one tickles Harry Styles and gets away with it”

“And what if I just did?” 

He smirked and climbed on top of me, his face inches from my own. “Well, I guess I can give you one chance to apologize..”

“Nope”

“Say you’re sorry or else I will have to get revenge”

“Okay.. Harry Styles, I am not sorry”

He pushed his lips onto mine, his kiss soft and needy. His hand lightly placed on my cheek and the other at his side, propping him up. 

I pulled away “Ewww, that was torture!”

He frowned and flipped his hair, giving me butterflies. “You take that back”

“Make me” I smiled and stuck my tongue out

“Why are you so beautiful? Its hard to stay mad at someone so pretty”

“Are you sure that you’re sane?”

“I am crazy for you” He winked

I started laughing like crazy “You are so corny it’s adorable”

“Ohh shush. Do you want to go into my pool, love?”

“Harry, it’s like 9:00”

“SO!? We can go in my hot tub”

“I don’t have a bathing suit stupid” I stuck my tongue out at him 

“So?”

“So you want me to go into your pool when it’s pitch black and you want me to go in naked? Doesnt sound very promising to me”

“I have pool lights.. Common, skinny dipping?”

I rolled my eyes “No thank you”

“Fine, you can use one of my moms bathing suits”

“Are you sure she wouldn’t mind?”

“Hell no, she loves you”

“Okay fine. You win” I pushed him off me and sat up

“I’ll be right back” He winked and walked out of his room

I fell back onto his bed, going under his blue and green sheets and resting my head on his pillow. Just as I was about to close my eyes, he ran in and jumped on the bed

“GET UP. I’M NOT LETTING YOU SLEEP. It’s only like 10:00”

“I wasn’t going to sleep! I was just waiting for you to get your ass back here”

“Here, go change” He threw me a hot pink bikini

“Wow, I never thought Anne would wear this” 

“She likes to think that she’s younger than she is”

I giggled and slapped his arm “Be right back”

I walked down the hall to the left, into his bathroom. I remembered his house like the back of my hand, he showed me every secret hiding spot. I changed into the bikini, looking in the mirror I realized just how much I have changed. I am okay with the girl staring back at me.

“Alex, Im so cold hurry up!” 

I snapped out of my trance and opened the door, banging into Harry who was leaning against it shirtless. I couldn’t help but stare, his body was amazing, it was tan and his abs were define, I could tell he was watching me. He picked me up and wrapped my legs around his waist, he wrapped his arms around me, keeping our bodies together. He whispered something in my ear. It sent chills down my spine

“Alex, you are beautiful. Inside and out, I don’t know how I can make you believe it but if I could give you the world I would”

My heart melted and I nuzzled my face into his bare neck as he walked outside, nearing the pool. His skin was warm making the cool night breeze bearable. He put me down and jumped in.

“Come in baby!”

“No, is it cold?”

“No”

“Im trusting you” I jumped in, the water was unpleasantly cold and I splashed Harry. “It’s fucking freezing!”

“Let me warm you up” He grinned, his face illuminated by the full moon, he looked breathtaking.

I let him pull me closer, hold me tight as he kissed me and made me warm again- made me feel alive.

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“Alex? Are you awake?” Harry whispered softly, pressing his body against my back and placing his face in the crook of my neck

“Yes love?” I turned around and looked at him through the darkness of his room

“I felt lonely”

I giggled “I’m right here”

“I know, I just wanted to hear your beautiful voice”

“Why are you so amazing? Seriously it’s unfair. All the other boys are  dicks compared to you”

I could see a grin form on his face, even through the darkness I could see his beautiful smile “Well, I would hope that I’m the only boy that matters, and as long as I am, I would never treat you as anything less than my world”

And with that my lips crashed onto his and I could tell what he said was true. He made my heart flutter, I knew he was the one.

“I love you baby” 

I smiled and closed my eyes, pressing my face into his chest

“I love you too”

-

Theres this certain state of dreaming, when you think you’re awake but you’re not. When everything feels so painfully real that it’s scary. You see every last detail, feel every small touch. 

He was pulling my hair and slapping me, tears escaping my eyes and I struggled to break free. He only laughed and held me tighter, bruises beginning to form.

I woke up screaming, my head pounding and my heart racing. It was only a dream. Only a memory that I thought I left behind. 

“Alex? Are you okay?!” Harry sat up, his voice still sleepy as he scratched his head, confused

“Bad dream” I barely managed to say as I held back tears

“What happened?”  He moved closer and lay me down on top of him stroking my hair and kissing my forehead

“Nothing Harry.. I just had a dream of the night”

He knew what I was talking about and his eyes filled with sympathy.

“I’m so sorry baby. I wish I could take that all away”

“I’m so sorry for waking you” 

“Baby, don’t be sorry. Try and rest? Okay? I’ll be right here” 

His words calmed me, he held me tight and kissed my forehead. 

“Goodnight Haz”

-

Morning came quicker than I expected, the bright sun blinding me. I slept surprisingly well. I almost forgot about the dream, Harry’s comfort like a cure. I turned around to face him, he was still unconscious, snoring slightly. I smiled, he looked adorable. 

I climbed on top of him, straddling his waist and shaking him lightly. 

“Get up haz!”

His eyes were still closed but his lips curved into a small smile

“Wake up!” I laughed and bounced on him

He opened his eyes and quickly flipped me over, pinning me down to the bed

“That was unexpected”

He grinned and kissed me softly, still tired he collapsed on my chest.

“I’m not a pillow” I giggled

“Yes, you’re my comfy pillow”

“It’s 12:00!”

“I couldn’t sleep last night, I was worried about you”

My heart skipped a beat and I kissed his forehead

“I’m fine now love, if you want you can go back to sleep”

“No, i’ll get up, but you’re just comfortable”

“What are we doing today?” I stroked his hair softly

“Well, I have to tell you something”

“and what is that?”

“Well, you know Simon right?”

“Yes, he’s the judge”

“Yeah.. Uhm, he says he wants to sign us, I got a text from him last night and I thought that I should wait till the morning to tell you”

I was speechless, I didn’t know how to react or what to say. It was that same feeling, happiness and fear. I couldn’t even trust my own emotions anymore

“Thats.. Amazing Harry!” I said, still out of it

“You don’t seem too happy love, what’s wrong?” he lifted his head and looked me in the eyes

I didn’t know what to say, I mean, what was I supposed to say?: Harry, I don’t want you to accept because I am selfish and I want you to myself. I’m sure that would go over well. So I smiled and grabbed his hand, took a deep breath and lied

“I’m fine! I’m so proud”

“Should I do it?” He looked at me so desperately, like I would make the decision for him.

“It’s up to you Haz”

“Alex, should I do it, I need your say”

I forced a smile, This isn’t about me anymore. “Of corse you should baby”

His eyes lit up and he hugged me tight “I’ll text back right now. Thanks for the support love”

“You’re welcome” I mumbled

I held onto him, gave him one last kiss before he grabbed his phone and texted back, I smiled and pretended I was okay, that’s all I really could do.

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“Alex, get up you’re coming with us!” Louis whined as he jumped on the bed

“Louis, It’s 9:00 am, You guys don’t need me” I groaned, still half asleep. Today was the day they would meet the producer.

“I want you to be there baby, this is a big step for us” Harry stroked my cheek and I smiled, giving in.

“Fine, get in the car, I’ll be there in a sec”

The boys raced down the stairs, laughing about who knows what. I sat up from Harry’s bed and opened his drawers, I pulled on his sweatpants and a white teeshirt. I didn’t really know what to expect, I was tired and confused and there was that stupid mixture of emotions that seemed to be haunting me lately. 

Annoyed with everything, I stepped in the car, wishing I could go back to sleep- be far away from here. Of corse, for my own selfish needs. 

“Is someone cranky this morning?” Zayn poked my face and laughed

“Go away” I sighed, leaning my head against the side of the car door and trying to rest.

“How can you be tired!! We’re going to be famous! I can buy you shit” Louis shook my shoulder and practically screamed in my ear

Harry swatted Louis arm away “Guys, leave her alone. You can sleep on me baby” 

“Awhhh” Liam and Niall teased

“Thank you Harry but i’m comfortable here” I said, sounding like a complete bitch. I saw his expression sadden and he looked at the ground.

I don’t know why I was acting like this, all he was doing was trying to live his dream and I was standing in his way. I should be cuddling with him, kissing him and enjoying the time we spend together, because who knows how much time I have left.

I stared blankly out the window, gazing at the trees and watching the colourful autumn leaves fall. The boys were screaming and singing and I tried my best to ignore them. 

-

“Alex, love are you awake?” Harry spoke softly in my ear, his warm breath giving me goosebumps. He shook me lightly “Babe, we’re here”

“I got her” Lou picked me up and pulled me out of the car, throwing me over his shoulder

“I’m up! Put me down” 

“Alex, whats wrong you love when I carry you”

“I’m not in a good mood today”

“Smile love, aren’t you excited!” Liam poked my cheek

“Ecstatic” I said sarcastically

Louis put me down and they all walked inside the building, I trailed behind, eyes fixated on random cracks in the pavement. As soon as I walked in I saw them talking to the producer, he looked at me and frowned

“I’m sorry, you can’t be here. Please wait outside” He said, sounding annoyed

“Of corse I can’t be here. Why would I expect any different” I rolled my eyes and looked at the boys, their face flooded with sympathy. Harry looked sad, almost.

I turned away and half walked half stormed out the door. I guess it shouldn’t bother me, I should just get used to it.

-

I was waiting outside for almost an hour, spending my time looking at the clouds and working on my tan that never seemed to improve. I heard the boys voices and I looked up to see them running towards me

“Alex!” Harry hugged me “I’m so sorry you couldn’t stay”

“We wanted you there” Niall added

“Don’t worry. So what happened?” 

They all smiled like crazy “They’re making us a song! We’re going to do a couple of gigs”

“Thats great!”  I smiled, happiness becoming more prominent than fear.

“Yeah! Let’s go get some ice cream, my treat” Harry kissed me on the cheek

“Thanks baby” Louis joked, slapping him on the butt

I smiled and I suddenly felt better. Maybe I was just over reacting about all this.

-

“Oh my god I want chocolate”

“Ew man that’s so plain. I want cookie dough”

“Cookie dough is disgusting”

The boys were arguing over ice cream flavours, typical. I giggled and watched them act like 5 year olds

“Come on Alex, tell him that vanilla is the best” Zayn put his arm around me

“I personally like mint chocolate chip”

“Yes!” Niall high fived me

“Just order your god damn ice cream before I slap you” Liam joked

we all got our ice cream, Harry paying as promised.

“So, what’s the song about?” 

“We’re not telling!”  Niall stuck his tongue out

“Fine”

“You’ll see soon enough”

“Soon enough isn’t good enough” I said in between spoonfuls of ice cream. 

“Too bad, miss impatient”

“Shut up” 

“I want to try some of your’s” Zayn dug his spoon into my bowl and popped it into his mouth

“Thanks a lot, I wasn’t going to eat that or anything” I giggled

“Sorry” 

“Hey Alex” 

I turned around to face Louis, he shoved ice cream on my nose

“Real mature Louis. I will cut you” 

“Why do you always threaten me!” 

“Because I can” 

“Meanie”

“I am evil”  

We joked around all day, at the end of the night they drove me home, Harry gave me hundreds of goodnight kisses, the boys threatening to puke and stating that we should get a room. They may be the most annoying, kiddish people I know, but I love them more than anything.

The day went by much quicker than expected, much better. I looked at my phone to see goodnight texts from all the boys. I smiled and slipped into bed. I found it harder to sleep tonight, it should’ve been easier, going to bed on a happy note. I guess I just didn’t want to lose consciousness, afraid of what I was leaving behind. 

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“You don’t know oh oh, you don’t know you’re beautiful, oh oh, that’s what makes you beautiful”  The boys were breathing hard, smiling “So Alex, what do you think?”

I was speechless, the song, their voices, it was all too perfect. “Guys.. It’s amazing!”  I jumped on them, forcing a group hug. “I’m so proud, you’re gonna be huge”

“Wherever we go, you come with us” Niall smiled and messed my hair up

I smiled, I needed to hear that. “That’s right bitches”

“What are we up to today?” Louis asked, kicking his feet up on my table

“Actually, if it’s okay with you guys, I wanted to spend some time with Alex, you know.. Alone”

“Owch.. We see how it is” Liam faked a frown

“Fine, have fun” Niall added

Zayn pinched our cheeks “Don’t forget to use protection, sweethearts”

We giggled and everyone said their goodbyes, closing the door on the way out.

“Hi” Harry grinned cheekily

“Hello Harold”

“I’m sorry I haven’t been spending much time with you lately, we’ve been so busy with the song, do you like it?”

“I love it. You guys are amazing, I seriously don’t deserve you”

His smile turned into a frown, he picked me up and placed me onto my couch, cuddling up to me. “I hate when you say things like that. Alex, if I could give you the world, I would. Why don’t you understand that? We need each other”

I brushed my lips against his and looked him in the eyes “I love you”

“I love you too, baby”

“What do you want to do today?”

“I wouldn’t mind laying here all day with you” He grinned and tangled his fingers with mine

“We can do anything, and you chose laying with me?” I giggled

“Yes. I love laying with you, I feel complete”

My cheeks flushed red and I looked away. He grabbed my face and turned it towards his

“You’re beautiful”

“Stop it, I’m not”

“Don’t make me sing the song again” He smiled “Why won’t you believe it?”

“I’ve just never thought of myself as anything more than useless, I’ve just gone through so much I guess I just can’t wake up feeling pretty”

“Stop it. That was the past, I won’t let anyone else hurt you, I won’t let anything else hurt you”

“Okay baby. So what’s next for you and the boys?“ I changed the subject, not wanting to talk about it anymore. 

“Well, we’re doing a couple of concerts”

“Oh my gosh, thats great!”

“I begged our manager to let you come, but.. You know”

I tried to hide my pain, my smile becoming fake.

“Don’t worry baby, you aren’t missing out on much” He tried his best to sound reassuring, which wasn’t so convincing. I was missing out on a lot. His first actual big concert and I couldn’t be there.

“Just.. Video tape it or something” 

“I will”

The room grew quiet, there was nothing for me to say. The grip on our fingers loosening, I felt lonely, although I was with him.

“I really am sorry. I hate our management” He whispered

I smiled, the feeling of loneliness washing away. “It’s fine, you can’t do anything about it”

“Yeah, I wish I could, seri-“

I kissed him hard, holding his face in my hands. I could feel a grin form on his lips as he pulled away

“What was that for?” 

“You need to talk less”

He winked and pressed his lips with mine, slowly opening his mouth and sliding his tongue in. I did the same and it quickly turned into a makeout session, my hands tangled in his curls and his pressed to my cheek. We heard my front door open, we quickly sat up, blushing and laughing. My parents walked in and smiled at us, the smile quickly fading as they glanced at eachother nervously. Confusion flooded over me, why were they acting so strange?

“Hey guys” My mom smiled fakely

“Hi mom” 

“Hi miss Filtsos”

“Nice to see you Harry, if it’s okay, we just need to talk to Alex” 

“Sure, umm. I have to get going now anyways” He looked at me with concerned eyes. He sat up and kissed me on the cheek before walking out the door.

“Alex, sit down” 

My heart was racing, I sat down beside them.

“Well.. We have some news you may not be too fond of”

“Go on”

I took a deep breath, steeling myself for the moment. My eyes closed, prepared for the worst. 

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“No! This can’t be happening!”

“I’m sorry, Alex. Please understand” They looked at me with sad eyes

“You can’t do this!” I broke down, crying and punching the wall. 

“Please calm down, everything will be alright” 

“How can you say that!?” My voice was hysteric, I had no control. 

“You can visit” 

I ran upstairs, slamming the door behind me. I collapsed on my bed, weeping silently into my pillow. How can things change so quickly? How can it go from me and Harry on the couch, madly in love, to moving to a different country? I got so mad, so mad at everything. How can life be such a bitch? What did I ever do to deserve this. Harry’s face popped in my mind, only making me cry harder. I can’t leave him, after all this I can’t. Then it hit me, how was I supposed to tell him? Maybe I should wait, I still have a month here. 

-

Text from Harry Styles: Hey baby, what happened? :(

I felt a stabbing pain in my heart, every time I thought of him it made me sob. With unsteady hands, I texted back

Me: Nothing, love. Just some family stuff. Whats up? x

I sighed, staring out my window. I really will miss this stupid place. No matter how much I hate this house, this town, I grew up here- I never knew I would leave so quickly.

Harry: Oh okay <3 Guess what!

I smiled through my tears

Me: What?

Harry: We have a concert in an hour! I didn’t even know, I’m so excited, apparently theres a lot of people there. Wish me luck :*

Me: Good luck baby! You’ll be great<3

Great, while I’m sulking Harry is out there getting famous. Suddenly, I realized something, this is the last month we can ever be together, I only have 30 days to kiss him, hug him and fall even more in love with him, then leave, empty as ever.

“Alex, please come out” I heard my dad, wiggling the locked door handle as if it would magically open.

“No” 

“Fine, but me and your mom really are sorry, we know how happy you are here, with.. Harry.”

I flinched at the sound of his name. My phone buzzed again, I looked to see a text from Lauren.

Lauren: ALEEEXX. I miss you! We’re chilling today, okay?

Me: Sure! :) I’m going to your house, mine sucks

Lauren: get over here xx

I ran out the door, unwilling to say goodbye to my parents, I was still mad at them, maybe they would change their minds if I made them feel bad. 

Lauren’s house wasn’t far, it was actually in walking distance, I was just always too lazy so I’d get her to pick me up, but today I needed the exercise. I rang her doorbell and stood there awkwardly.

“Come in!” She squealed, her face losing expression as she saw my frown

I walked inside, her house was always one of my favourites. We went up her spiral staircase and into her big room, full of pink. I always made fun of her for it.

“Whats wrong?” She asked, knowing something was troubling me

“I’m not so sure you want to know”

“Of corse I do, spill”

“Well.. I’m moving in a month”

She was speechless, her face pale and her eyes hollow “Alex, you can’t leave us! Where are you even going!” 

“I’m moving to LA. My dad got a job offer there. I can’t believe it” I tried to keep calm, I’ve always hated crying in front of people, but she pulled me in for a hug and I lost it again.

“How am I going to tell Harry?” I whispered, she wiped a falling tear from my cheek and looked at me

“I say you wait, if you tell him you’re leaving now you guys will be too upset to spend your time together properly. Oh my gosh, I’m going to miss you so much”

“I’m going to miss you too” 

“Promise me you’ll visit”

“I swear” I managed a smile “I’m sorry for the news”

“No, love. I’m glad you told me. Let’s just try to enjoy the time we spend together”

“Yeah, so apparently the guys have a concert tonight!”

“Yes! I’m going in about an hour, do you need a ride?” 

I looked down “I’m not actually allowed to go, their manager hates me”

“Oh my gosh, that’s terrible!”

“Yeah. Whatever”

“I’ll fill you in, ok?”

“Sure thing!”

She tried to get my mind off it, giving me manicures and other girly things i’ve never had the time or effort to do. She actually got me to laugh, brought a smile to my face, but it hurt even more knowing I had to leave her. 

“I’m sorry, I have to go now” She frowned

“Okay, I’ll leave, it was really great seeing you. Tell the boys I say hi”

“I will. We have to chill before you.. go”Her words sounding painful. She gave me a final hug and I was out the door. I didn’t want to go home, though. I wasn’t ready to face my parents and their guilty pleas. I went to the local park, it was empty and sketchy as usual. I sat on the swings, swinging back and forth to pass the time. The wind whipping at my hair, the light feeling in my body, Impossibly, I felt okay.

-

I had a random burst of hope, I would make this month the best one ever, I would spend my last weeks with him properly. I walked home, my head held high. I was surprisingly alright under these horrible circumstances, but of corse life has to go along and ruin that. I looked down at my phone to see:

Harry: Baby!!! I have greatttt news!! We’re filming a music video for our new song! I won’t be able to see you for 2 weeks, I’m so sorry :( I’ll miss you so much. I’ll never stop thinking of you. I’ll make sure to text you every day. I love you! :* <3

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The weeks went by quickly, spending it with old friends and family. I’ve been happy, but Harry’s never left my mind. A smile spread across my face, he was coming back today. One week. That’s all I have left in this town, the last couple days I would spend with him. I still haven’t told him yet, though, I couldn’t get myself to do it over text, I began to wonder if I could ever really do it at all.

I ran downstairs and poured myself some coffee, sipping it slowly and trying to think of a way to tell him. Harry, I’m moving in a week, sorry. Way too blunt. I am moving to a different country, but no worries, we’ll keep in touch. Damn I’m bad at this, why can’t I just stay? I snapped out of my thoughts as I saw my mom stare at me oddly

“Are you okay? You’ve had this weird expression on your face for like 5 minutes”

“Woops” I responded dryly. I still haven’t forgiven her, I don’t think I ever can, even though I know it’s not her fault.

“Alex, sweetie. I don’t know what to say anymore, I know you’re happy here, It will be tough at first but you’ll love LA”

“You just don’t get it mom.” I stared at my coffee, suddenly losing my appetite and pushing it away from me. 

“I know you like him-“

“You’re wrong, I’m in love with him. Ever since I met him I’ve been in love with him. You’re ruining my life”

“You’ll be fine”

“Yeah, that’s what they all say” I stormed back upstairs, falling down on my bed and burying my face in my pillow. No one understands.

I was tired of crying, I got dressed and made myself look presentable, even at my best I still looked bad. Why would he ever go for a girl like me?

-

“Harry!!” I yelled, jumping on him and giving him a hug. He looked even more amazing than usual.

“Hey” 

Not really the welcoming I expected, but I shrugged it off.

He welcomed me inside and sat me down on the couch.

“I missed you!” I smiled and rested my head on his neck

“Same” 

Something was off.

“How was it?”

“It was fun, I liked it”

“Uhm.. Cool” I pulled my head away, distancing myself from him “Are you okay?”

“Yes.. Does it look like i’m not?” He sounded annoyed

“Actually, yes, it does. You’re not acting like yourself”

“Sorry. I am just really busy. I have a photo shoot in an hour”

“I see, I’m sorry, I didn’t know I became nothing to you”

He looked up at me, his expression unfamiliar, his eyes were cold. “I do care about you I just have priorities”

I didn’t know who I was talking to, he wasn’t the Harry I fell in love with. A lump formed in my throat, I knew I was close to tears. 

“I need to tell you something” I said, looking him in his deep green eyes

“Can you make it quick, I gotta get ready”

“You know what, never mind. Have fun at your photo shoot, love”

I stood up and walked out the door, he didn’t protest. Too many thoughts and emotions overpowered me, what happened to him?

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“I’m telling you Harry, you’ve been acting different lately!” I screamed in frustration over the phone. Four days had gone by, Harry still acting odd and distant. Could everything we had get lost in three weeks?

“Alex, I don’t know what the hell you’re talking about!” He spat

“You think I don’t know you well enough by now? What the fuck is going on?!”

“I’m still Harry, ok! I’m just busy and I can’t sit around and talk to you all fucking day” 

Those words tore through me and it suddenly hit me. He didn’t have time for me anymore. I should’ve known better. This was exactly what I was afraid of. 

“I hate you” Those words came out of nowhere, sounding far from familiar on my tongue. 

“You don’t mean it”

“You’re right, I don’t. But I hate what you’ve become. Remember when you said fame doesn’t matter, as long as we could be together? Does that mean anything to you anymore?”

“Alex, stop. I am still Harry” His tone wasn’t the slightest bit convincing, he tried to make himself believe something that was far from the truth.

“Prove it. Come over today and prove to me that you haven’t changed”

There was an unsettling silence. “I can’t come over today…”

“Let me guess; photo shoot, or concert?”

He sighed. “Concert”

“Typical”

“Alex. Stop it please. You know that I love you and I would be there if I could” 

The truth is, I don’t really know anymore. I can’t tell if he truly still loves me. It shouldn’t be like this. I used to be able to feel his love, get lost in it. And now I’m questioning it.

“I really need to tell you something Harry” The thought of me leaving weighing down my mind.

“Can this please wait? I have to go”

“Sure” Tears were pricking at my eyes. He didn’t even have the time to hear me out, how could he possibly have time to care?

“Bye” And then I heard a click and the phone went silent. It was only 5;00 pm but I was tired. I’m not sure if it was the sleep kind of tired or the life kind, maybe it was a mix of both. I decided to go for a nap, there was really nothing better to do. I curled up in my bed and slowly drifted off into a sleep that seemed to last forever. 

-

“Alex? Alex honey wake up” My mom sat on my bed and lightly stroked my hair, like she used to do when I was little. 

“Hmm?” I mumbled, still not fully conscious. 

Her face went blank, as if she was trying to find an expression, but couldn’t. “Um.. Since we’re you know.. Leaving soon.. I think you should start packing. Just to be prepared” She tried her best not to irritate me.

i wasn’t ready to yell at her, I didn’t have the strength to fight off her loving gestures. I guess I kind of gave up at some point. I mean, I sure would miss it here, but there’s nothing to stay for anymore. That thought alone makes me want to cry, everything has changed so quickly, there is no reason for me to stay.

“Yeah, whatever” I sighed and sat up. My mom left the room, slowly shutting the door behind her. I started packing up all my things, clothes, books, makeup. I stumbled across a couple of Harry’s shirts and hoodies that he gave me. I smiled and hugged them and folded them gently inside my big suitcase. I want to think that I can live without him, but I can’t. It’s so much easier to imagine, then actually live it. I wish I didn’t know I was leaving, I wish we could just go on a family road trip and end up moving to a different country. And that’s the thing that messes us up the most. When we know the end is close, we try our best to capture every moment. It becomes nearly impossible to let go. 

2 days left. 

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“Harry, look at me! What has gotten into you!” My voice was hysteric, I grabbed his arm and tried to turn him around. I had lost it.

“Alex! How many fucking times can I tell you. Nothing” His words were full of hate. 

“Why are we still together, Harry. You clearly don’t give a shit about this relationship anymore! You won’t even listen to me. I don’t remember the last time we’ve kissed. I don’t even remember the last time you’ve actually looked me in the eyes and spoken to me like a normal person” I don’t even know why I tried anymore, why I even bothered to come over to his house. All it caused were new arguments.

“Don’t you dare say I don’t care” He quickly turned around, grabbing my arm now and squeezing it till it hurt. 

“Ow! What the hell, let go of me!” His grip quickly loosened and his face went pale. 

“I’m so sorry-” There was something unfamiliar in his tone, maybe regret. He tried to hug me, to pretend everything was alright, but I couldn’t even look at him anymore. He sickened me. 

“No you’re not! You’re not sorry, Harry. Not at all” 

“Alex, I love you” The words sounding unreal, scripted, almost. 

“I wish I could believe that Harry”

“Look, I’m just busy, ok? I have no time to love you properly” He tried to sound as sincere as possible. 

“Then, let’s hang out all of today. You still haven’t proved anything to me” 

“Oh.. Alex.”  

“You can’t. Thats news to me”

“I’m so sorry. But I can Friday, I swear”

Too late, I’ll be gone. I sighed. “Theres a problem with that, I actually have some bad news to tell you” Enough procrastinating, I had to do it. 

Anger showed on his face “Alex! I don’t want to hear it, please!” 

You know what, I just won’t tell him at all. “Alright, I’ll go then. Bye Haz” 

“Bye” 

And I think that was the last thing I ever said to him, he ever said to me. I wanted to kiss him, one last time, but it just didn’t feel right. Not anymore. And so I left, tears flowing down my eyes and an empty place in my heart. 

-

For the first time I actually wanted to leave, couldn’t wait for it. I stared at my once full room, now empty and dull. Soon this whole place will be no more than a memory, barely tangible. I guess it hasn’t really hit me yet, it still feels like one big, fucked up dream. That’s all my life is becoming, a fucked up dream. I used to have a tight grip on reality, but I guess I lost it somewhere along the way.

“Alex, are you all packed?” My dad tapped me on the shoulder

“Yeah” I mumbled

“Good, we’re leaving at 1:00 tomorrow so you can say goodbye to all your friends” 

“Sure, dad” I rolled my eyes and shooed him off. I just needed to be alone. 

“How’s Harry? Did he take everything alright” 

My heart shattered again, “I know he’ll be fine” 

“Will you be fine, Alex” 

I didn’t know how to respond at first, no one had really asked me that. “It doesn’t matter anymore” I attempted a smile and closed the door on him, pressing my back against it and sliding down. I don’t really know if I’ll ever be fine.

A Twist In My Story-Last Chapter

My eyes slowly peeled open, exhausted from a sleepless night. My bed was the only thing left in this room, what I used to call my own. It still didn’t feel real to me, I guess I was still in denial. I still had this stupid thought in my head, that everything will stay the same. I still believed that I was going to wake up every morning and go to Harry’s house. I still thought that I could kiss him and talk with him for hours, so blind by the fact that that’s all gone now. It’s never going to happen I reminded myself, trying to keep a firm grip on reality, while everything else is falling apart.

I had been in this house my whole life, but today it seemed different somehow, unsettling. Maybe it was the fact that I was leaving, so finally, that made it all seem so strange. There was just too may memories. All these years of saying I hate this place, but now it’s never felt more like home. And what about all of the people? Lauren, the best friend I’ve ever had. The boys, I never even had a chance to say goodbye, they didn’t have a clue. My family, never really have been close with them. And Harry, the boy that I will never stop loving, although he may not feel the same.

12:00 My phone read. I still had an hour to kill. After a long time of thinking, I decided to write Harry a letter. Cheesy, I know, but he at least deserves to know i’m leaving, he needs to hear it from me. I picked up a pen and paper and with shaky hands, I began to write everything that came to mind. 

-

I rang the doorbell nervously, I didn’t even know if he would be home or not. A familiar face answered the door, but it was not his. 

“Hey Alex” Anne smiled at me

“Hi Anne” I smiled back as sweetly as possible. 

“If you’re looking for Harry, he’s at a photo shoot with the boys! He’s so busy lately, i’m so proud” 

of course. “Oh, that’s fine. Yeah, it’s really great! Do you mind giving this to him?” I showed her the envelope

“Sure thing, love. What’s it for?” She took it

“Oh, it’s just some pictures and stuff” I lied 

“That’s so sweet. I’ll be sure to give it to him as son as he gets home. Do you want to come in?” 

I would miss his house. “I actually have to get going” I tried my best to keep a straight face, she was like a second mother to me. 

“Alex, is everything alright?” Her face was full of concern

“Yeah… I’m fine” I gave her a hug. “Thank you… for everything.. really.”

Confusion washed over her, she opened her mouth to say something, but I gave her one last smile and then I was gone.

-

*Harry’s POV* 

“Harry, this is for you” My mom handed me a letter

“Thanks” I took it from her and walked upstairs, collapsing onto my bed. Work is so tiring, I just want to spend time with her. I feel terrible, she keeps saying that I’ve changed, I’ve just been under so much stress lately that It’s hard to be the same. Screw work, I’m going to be with her today. I’m going to finally prove to her that I still love her. 

I looked down at the letter to see my name, the print shaky and rushed, but all the most familiar. I knew it was Alex’s. I smiled and opened it carefully, pulling out the paper from within. 

Dear Harry,

I just wanted to say that I love you. I will never stop, no matter how hard I try. I don’t know where I would be if I had never met you, you’ve showed me what it’s like to feel alive. I’ve been trying to tell you this for so long, but you’ve been too busy. I’m moving, Harry. By the time you read this, I’ll already be gone. I’ve gone to LA, my dad got a job offer and I couldn’t stay behind. I don’t really know what to say. I will miss you so much, and it’s hard to believe that after all we’ve been through, this is the end. But I don’t want you to think of it like that. Think of it as a new beginning, to a life you should’ve had. I know you’ll be fine without me, you have the boys, the fans, and beautiful girls screaming your name in every language imaginable. I wan’t you to have fun, so I guess it’s official now, you’re single again. I know you’ll find someone prettier, someone better, someone who actually deserves you. I tried for so long to tell myself that I was good enough for you, that I was ok, but I’m tired of pretending. I don’t want you to be sad about this, I just want you to forget. Forget about this, about us and about me. It may be hard, maybe it will be easy, even, but I know you’ll manage. I know I’m rambling, but I just need this to end right. Maybe this was all for the best, it’s time you focus on your career and all I was doing was getting in your way. I really do wish you the best, Haz. I love you. xx

-Alex<3

A couldn’t move, couldn’t get my eyes off the page. I read it over 50 times, hoping that it would change. I could’ve done something, I was too fucking busy to even listen to her and now she’s gone. I felt like half of my heart has been ripped out and I’m left feeling incomplete. This can’t be happening. 

I felt useless, I cried for over an hour and ignored all of my phone calls, most from my manager. I don’t want all of this. I don’t need fame or money, I just want her back. I felt empty, horribly, horribly empty. And then it all just hit me; I could call her a million times, but she changed her number. I could knock on her door for hours, and she wouldn’t be there to answer it. It’s too late.  

*End of POV*

As the plane started to move I looked out the window one last time, treasuring this place I once knew. A single tear streamed down my face, I would never miss anything more.

And maybe some day I can return to these streets, to him, and find comfort in what was, but can never be again. 

The End 

Epilogue is optional, it’s for those who werent happy with the sad ending.

A Twist In My Story-Epilogue

“Don’t touch me. I’m mad at you” I slapped Jake’s hand away, he grinned like the whole fight didn’t phase him.

Its been a year since I left Harry, everyone and everything behind. Jake has been my boyfriend for 3 months, he’s a sad attempt at filling the never-ending void inside of me that was once complete. I hate to admit it, but I’m using him. Every kiss I feel nothing, I try to imagine it as Harry, but it will never satisfy. Every time he holds me it feels wrong, forced, almost. He can’t take anything seriously, always laughs at my problems and pushes them aside. This isn’t how it was supposed to be. 

“Alex, baby. Relax” He put his arm around my shoulder and I pushed him away

“No! You can never take anything fucking seriously. Everythings a joke to you”

“What ever, please forgive me for talking to Jessica” He rolled his eyes

“You know I hate her, she pushes me, don’t you give a fuck?”

“Of course I do. Now let’s watch tv”

Anger was threatening to escape, It’s been like this a lot lately. He doesn’t help make me better, but he distracts me from Harry, and I guess thats what I needed. We sat down on the couch in our shared house, my mom thought it was a great idea that I moved in with him.  

“Who are those losers?” He laughed at the tv screen. It was them. “The songs not even catchy”

I sighed “They are not losers and the song is amazing” I still remember the time Harry whispered the lyrics into my ear, his deep voice making me weak, I cuddled up closer to him. Then he looked up at me with his gorgeous green eyes, smiled and said: This song is for you, love. I pushed the memory away, I needed to be strong. Its been a year, he’s probably forgotten I ever existed. I hate that ache you feel when you miss someone who doesn’t miss you. I hate when I reflect on the moments that truly made me happy and content. I wonder, what went wrong? How did this happen?

“Awhh, thats so cute, you’re defending your little boy band” 

I shot him a dirty look. “I am not defending them”

“So then you won’t mind if I say that the blonde hair one is ugly, and the boy with the curls looks like the biggest fag on this planet” He smirked 

I wanted to hit him so hard. “He’s not!” I snapped

“How cute! Is he your boyfriend?!”

“Just shut up” I stood up, frustrated and stormed out the door.

“Babe, come back. You’re over reacting.” 

“No, I can’t deal with your shit right now”  I stepped into my moms black truck, Im finally old enough to drive. I was going back home, I can’t stay in this fucking house anymore. I needed to be far away from him, from everything. 

*Harry’s POV*

“Do you guys think this is it?” The boys bent over and looked at my laptop screen.

“It should be. Can I come with, I miss her” Louis asked

“No guys, I have to see her on my own. I will try and bring her back here. I hope this is her”  I printed off her address and ran to my car. Ever since I was told we were touring in LA I couldn’t get her off my mind. Maybe we could be together again. She’s probably moved on, I mean, I can’t blame her. I was such a dick to her. As for me, I’ve had countless hookups with girls to numb the pain of her leaving me. They mean nothing, and I realized that I need Alex. I am only myself when I’m with her. I needed to find her, no matter what it would take. I was such an idiot, and I will never forgive myself for how I treated her.  

I stared at the map in my hand then looked up. It was definitely her house. My heart was racing, my emotions were jumbled. Doubt. What if this isn’t her? What if she will never take me back? Excitement. Ive missed her so much. I need to hold her again. Love. I’ve never stopped thinking about her. I slowly made my way up to her doorstep and rang her doorbell, I thought of running away but I know I would regret it. The door opened and a smile spread across my face.

“Hi miss Filt- I mean, Lucy” 

She looked surprised “Harry? What are you doing here, hun?” 

“I am on tour, I stopped by to visit Alex.. is she home?” My palms were sweaty

“Oh… I’m sorry she’s not home”

“Oh thats okay, I’ll just stop by later, do you know what time she’ll be back?”

She looked at me with sympathy “She moved in with her boyfriend, she isn’t coming home for a little while”

I couldn’t breathe, my heart felt like it was slowly being torn into a million pieces. “Oh.. ok” I whispered.

“Bye Harry” She gave me a sad smile and closed the door softly. 

This can’t be fucking happening. I need her. I screamed in frustration and sat on the curb. It’s all over now. My face was in my hands and I was fighting back tears. I wonder if he loves her like I do, I wonder if he holds her and kisses her like she’s his world. Just thinking of someone else touching her makes me sick. If I could go back and change everything, I would. This stupid fame means nothing if I can’t be with her again. I was too blind to see that. I heard another car pull in the driveway, my head shot up. They opened the door and slammed it hard, cursing under their breath. It took me another second to realize it was her, it was Alex. She looked more beautiful than ever, even with her track pants, her hair in a ponytail and her obvious anger. I smiled like crazy, she was wearing my sweater. I wanted to call out to her, but couldn’t find the words to.

“Alex!” I screamed without realizing it.

*End Of Pov*

I turned around at the sound of his voice. It was him. He stood up slowly from the sidewalk and walked towards me.

“Alex..” The smile on his face was heartwarming. He looked amazing, impossibly better than before.

“Harry?” 

He was running now, his feet slamming across the pavement. I couldn’t get myself to move, I was too in shock. He picked me up and hugged me tightly, wrapping my legs around his waist. 

“Alex, i’m so so so sorry. Please forgive me, I was such a dick. Ever since you left i’ve been a mess”

“Why are you here, Harry”  I tried my best to sound serious, not wanting my happiness to show.

“I’m on tour, I needed to see you. Forgive me, Alex”

I hate how perfectly we fit together, I hate how I will never be able to let him go, how no matter what I can’t stop loving him. 

“Harry, I have a boyfriend now.. I love him” I tried my best to make the words sound true.

“Alex, I know you still love me” 

Its true. But I couldn’t admit to it.

“Harry, I have Jake now”  I looked at the ground. “Please leave” 

“No, I’m not leaving Alex” He turned my face towards his. “I won’t leave until you admit that you still love me”

“Harry.. Please leave”

“Admit it, Alex. I could tell by the way you looked at me. I know you, I can read you”

“You don’t know anything about me Harry” I said behind clenched teeth. 

“Oh don’t give me that, Alex. I know you better than you know yourself. I know that your favourite colour is iridescent, no matter how many times I tell you it isn’t a colour. I know that you love to read because its an escape from reality, I know that you have a weak spot under your neck and on your jaw. I know that you hate winter and love rain an-“

“Leave” I pushed him away from me. He knew me too well. 

“Is that what you want Alex? You want me to leave? Will it make you happy, because if it will, I will go.”

“Yeah” I looked away 

“Fine” He turned around, walked slowly towards his car, I couldn’t let him leave again.

“Harry wait!” 

He turned around, a small smile spread across his face.

“I can’t pretend anymore” 

He picked me up, looked me in the eyes one last time before pressing his lips onto my own. I couldn’t help but smile. I missed his kisses so much.

“I love you Harry”

He grinned, I missed his gorgeous smile. “I love you too, Alex”

We laid on the grass, staring up at the sky. He was holding me close, afraid I would slip away again. For a second everything else in the world didn’t matter anymore, it was just me and him. And I love the effect he has on me, he can make me remember, he can make me forget, he can make the worst days seem like the best and he makes me feel beautiful, no matter how terrible I look. 

“Alex?” He whispered softly in my ear, his raspy voice sending shivers down my spine. 

“Yes, Haz?”

“Please come on tour with me? I talked to everyone about it, they would love for you to join” 

“Really?” I giggled and rolled on top of him, looking into his beautiful emerald eyes.

“Yes, what do you say?”

“Of course love”

“Babe?”

“Mhm?”

He leaned closer, his hot breath on my neck. “I swear to you, Alex, I will never let you go”

The End.